The Liberating Feeling Of Knowing You Can, You Shall And You Own It
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0.000 HBDThe Liberating Feeling Of Knowing You Can, You Shall And You Own It
<html> <h1>Lately, I've honestly been dealing with a lot of anger.</h1> <p>Why? Because of toxic people, ones whom I've grown up with.</p> <p>It's a disillusioning, yet also painful feeling to know that some of the people you thought you could count on as friends are actually not your friends.</p> <p>They're only out to hurt you.</p> <h1>As a result, I've eliminated a couple of friends from my life and with that, I felt the initial anxiety of making such a bold move:</h1> <p><em>"What would people think of me?"</em></p> <p><em>"Is this the right thing to do?"</em></p> <p><em>"Am I just being too sensitive? Am I being too rash?"</em></p> <p><em>"What if I am wrong and others are right?"</em></p> <p><em>"What if this only serves to isolate me and I end up being unhappy alone?"</em></p> <p>All these thoughts went through my mind.</p> <h1>Usually when I ruminated over thoughts like these, I'd crush them and shove them down my body with "stronger" thoughts, like:</h1> <p><em>"Fuck this shit! I am the best!"</em></p> <p><em>"No more excuses!"</em></p> <p><em>"No way I am gonna show up at anything with toxic assholes around. The message will be clear then!"</em></p> <p><em>"Should a fight occur, I'd absolutely murder them."</em></p> <p><em>"So the fuck what if people want to talk shit about me behind my back? I am done. I don't give a fuck no more."</em></p> <p>These were serving to boost my sense of masculinity.</p> <h1>But today, I give it a new school of thought, one with a huge array of possibilities that speak of bigger truths, higher hopes and ultimately works to unleash the best potential in me:</h1> <p><em>"Even if I run into toxic people again, I do no need to feel angry. I can be the bigger person and walk away."</em></p> <p><em>"I do not need to feel angry over what others think of me anymore, for their words are empty and come from a hostile place. I just have to trust myself."</em></p> <p><em>"I do not need to act out should the situation get heated. I can use my words calmly as I am an intelligent adult."</em></p> <p><em>"I am not a tree. I can move."</em></p> <p><em>"I may have less friends now, but that does not mean I'll be unhappy and alone. I can write. I can read. I can do shit I love."</em></p> <p><em>"I can rekindle lost relationships."</em></p> <p><em>"I can meet new people."</em></p> <h1>When you read this, it may seem like generic self-help drivel of positivity and hope, but it's a huge step for me as I start to become better my own way.</h1> <p>It's a liberation along the path of love, not vengeance.</p> <p>It's a liberation based on proper and good values, not half-truths and excuses.</p> <p>I wish that you become liberated this way too.</p> <h1><em>To end off, I'd like to case a few panels from my favorite graphic novel, The Sandman by Neil Gaiman. This is from the volume, Brief Lives.</em></h1> <p><em>http://alden-tan.com/wp-content/uploads/2018/05/destruction-1.jpg</em></p> <p><em>http://alden-tan.com/wp-content/uploads/2018/05/destruction-2.jpg</em></p> <p><em>http://alden-tan.com/wp-content/uploads/2018/05/destruction-3.jpg</em></p> <p><em>http://alden-tan.com/wp-content/uploads/2018/05/destruction-4.jpg</em></p> <h1><em>Some context:</em></h1> <p><em>Destruction, an entity of The Endless (beings that are even more complicated than gods) abandoned his duties and left his realm a long time ago.</em></p> <p><em>With that, he stopped helping mortals in the aspect of destruction. And his words in his panels try to explain why he left.</em></p> <p><strong>I feel it relates so much to me as I leave my own circle of friends.</strong></p> <p><br></p> <a href = "https://steemit.com/@aldentan"><img src = "http://alden-tan.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/10/Steemit-banner.jpg"></a></html>
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