Stumbling on Facebook, Reminded why I left (Sarcasm Ahead!!!)
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0.000 HBDStumbling on Facebook, Reminded why I left (Sarcasm Ahead!!!)
I was trying to track down information regarding some people about a biz matter and decided to try Facebook just to see if I could get a company name was the gist of it. With much trepidation I found an old sock account (one of a ton on there)....and pushed log in.  (how artificial and contrived the old "me" was, I still would rebel by opening my first building storefront at 24 to avoid turning into a housewife) What was odd was the feeling of what messages (if any) would be there and the fact I didn't want to see pictures of people from my past. I am a firm believer you leave the past where it belongs and move forward in life NO MATTER WHAT. Of course the info for the company was easily found so no biggie and I felt one thing was about to get crossed off my "to do" list for the day. Then I was like hmmmmm, I wonder how this person is or this one.....and what every happened to him or her or them? Apparently professional portraits of couples is a big thing and has been but what the literal fuck! .gif) (what I picture is a more accurate depiction of reality behind most fake ass dog and pony shows.... it wasn't long ago all the women were talking about which new happy pill they were popping while talking about meaningless crap at overpriced parties!) I was usually with the men smoking outside somewhere trying to just be left alone till I could leave... :) I had been in a half assed sort of good mood logging on, my usual female version of Larry David ....but it quickly turned south when I saw all these totally contrived pictures of old friends who were posed by this beach or that one or smiling with teeth way whiter than before. There is someone bragging about this or that and OMG, my old group of "friends" all look plastic and everything is so posed and artificial. It's like they even used a mummified or stuffed Labradoodle to angle just the right direction. Everyone had the same hair! Page after page I started to just link old friends and people I hung out with and not one picture had anything remotely unstaged or normal going on. I then realized after staring at Buffy number 10's huge Diamond waving in front of the camera with some completely void look behind a face so plastered with makeup that I left this life for a reason. There was nothing deep or profound on any of it, just rooting for a sports team or showing off McMansions and vacations. I remembered how I used to post weird stuff like a funky sign or a picture of myself in the rain looking sad or me just flopping down in snow with not a drop of makeup on but just a silly hat. They are the "Normies" and I spent too much life and time trying to be one to never fit in even when I looked the part. Looks are deceiving and then I realized that all these people seemed to have were selfies and then all my pictures were actual pictures of things and almost no selfies or ones that were impromptu. Which is the real and which is the false? Am I just as fake for turning my back on "Society" and dropping out or did I wake up and decide that being a Stepford Wife was not the road to take? So here I am typing this feeling kinda down in a mudmask with my hair in a messy huge bun with a pencil in it and my glasses on.... pecking away to people I'll never meet and you know something? IT FEELS REAL .gif) (My new version of me and a few close friends...no more Buffy's and dudes with names like Blake Bufont III wearing pink golfshirts with khakis!) *pixabay, giphy, you are only a few decisions and moves away from a totally new life....... anybody who says their life is close to perfect is full of shit and it's okay to have a bad day/week/month/year, that's life baby!* 
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