How do you feel when you call someone repeatedly and they don’t pick? It makes me feel very sad and unwanted. Well, that may be good and not as painful as the person intentionally missing your calls and when they drop a text and act like they didn’t miss your call or acknowledge that they missed it and made you feel like your call is less important and for that reason, they won’t call back? 

I’m in that situation right now and I don’t know what mine is but while typing now, I’m so angry to the point that even my keyboard will surely know that I’m very angry. Funny thing is, I already vowed not to get angry because I’m hot tempered and I barely let things slide. If I let it slide, I won’t feel satisfied so I want to talk about every little thing or every little issue we have. Also, it’s funny that I’m angry and don’t know the situation that this person is in. 

Listen to music? Maybe it’s going to work. It will but just for the main time. I think what I love about music is the fact that when I’m angry or in a particular mood, it will at least make me calm for that moment. It will suppress the anger to the minimal level and by the time I really wish to react, I’ll act calmly and eventually know the reason he’s missing or maybe ignoring my calls if that’s the case but for now, I just want to listen to music to make myself calm. 

Here may be a tip for anyone who needs it. When I’m in any kind of mood and I want to use music as a means of calming myself down, I usually ask from the AI about the songs to listen to. 
I explain my mood to the AI then it tells me the song to listen to. 

https://youtu.be/rP09GUQFDFk?si=sUANCBklP-KOuODg

I’m actually going to wait for his call or won’t I? I’ve got no choice. The only thing which is going to spark up my anger is if his reason for missing my calls isn’t valid. Do this kind of thing make you cry? 
It hurts me a lot . I’ve been in so many relationships and when it’s going to the end of the road. 

https://youtu.be/ErvgV4P6Fzc?si=t96whMEZvCq_dqvJ

I really want the spirit of patience to descend on me right now. I think these songs I’m listening to are just making me bottle up my emotions. 
To be honest, I don’t want to talk, complain nor react so I’ll just wait calmly for a response that I think I deserve. 

https://youtu.be/4uTNVumfm84?si=bh3IpZlNAuApvQ4a

The only word that keeps ringing in my head is “wait” so I’ll just keep waiting all for me to get a response that I deserve. 

But, this hurts so much. Especially seeing that this person is online and may be with his phone but ignores your text. It’s not like we had an argument earlier. Whether he reaches out to me or not, I’ll surely have a great week.