My never-ending problems
life·@cinnamon.blu·
0.000 HBDMy never-ending problems
I know I am a sensitive person. I am very aware of that. But I also know that my sensibility depends on the people and situations. If I find myself in the situation where some strangers or people that don’t mean anything to me offend me or criticize me I don’t get sad or hurt, if anything it makes me angry. But when someone I care about say something insulting or hurtful it kills me. It hurts me so bad that for the moment I can’t even function properly so I could defend myself. And it frustrates me, because I don’t want to be like that. I don’t want to relay on other people opinions, no matter who they are. I just care too much and I just don’t have it in me to tell people to get lost.  I understand that sometimes the situation demands a little of rough communication and that sometimes people that really care about me must say something brutally honest to shake me and get me moving. But I can’t understand the judging and deliberately harming words especially from people who really know me. And especially when it comes unexpected. I would never say something like that to them…never. Because I just don’t see the point in making someone sad and hurt if I can help them or encourage them instead. And I know that people are quite self-minded and that their actions and words come from their own perceptions…but that doesn’t count for people who know exactly how to hurt me. Because if I know that someone gets very sensitive at certain topic I will not mention it or especially I will not use it against them. I don’t know…maybe it’s just me and my stupid sensibility but as I said…after all this time I still don’t know how to stop torturing myself and not get hurt so badly by the people that mean the world to me.  All I know is that I have enough of crying and feelind sad because of others. So let's take a deep breath and focus on ourselves! 