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These are four drawings that I recently completed. As you can see, the title is 'Escape,' and by reading it, anyone could guess the message conveyed through these drawings.

I drew these during a period of challenging experiences in my life, and honestly, I couldn't find my way out. I felt extremely discouraged, and the only solace I could find was in expressing myself through art and prayers.

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Everyone goes through various struggles in life, but when challenges come relentlessly, one after another, it can be extremely draining, affecting almost every aspect of your life - physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually.

As a parent, one of my toughest challenges is parenting, demanding unwavering devotion. Every waking moment is an opportunity to nurture, guide, and cherish my kids - a role I fully embrace. However, at times, it becomes challenging to be an effective parent when other worries, such as financial issues, weigh on my mind.

Occasionally, it seems much easier to be a parent on 'auto-pilot' mode - providing basic necessities for the kids and letting them raise themselves - freeing up time for me to address other issues in life. It's a tempting option, with no intentional nurturing or guidance, simply allowing the kids to do their own thing. Honestly, it's very tempting.

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The bitter pill to swallow is the observation of others seemingly blessed with financial security that eludes me. They effortlessly go through life while I find myself treading water, struggling to stay afloat amidst so much instability. I admit it's a juxtaposition that often leaves me questioning my choices and efforts.

There is always the fear of the next crisis happening to us - kids falling sick or the car breaking down. It's not mere paranoia; it's the aftermath of having weathered storms before. Each bill, each unforeseen expense becomes a harbinger of impending doom, threatening to unravel the fragile balance I've managed to maintain.

I know it's irrational, but I can't help but compare myself to others who had it better in life. Call it envy and ungrateful, but I'm tired of constantly battling against a relentless storm. All I want is a respite, but it always seems just out of reach.

The disparity between the comfort others seem to effortlessly enjoy and my own perpetual struggle creates a dissonance that's difficult to reconcile. It's not envy but a deep-seated longing for the security and stability that would grant my family peace of mind.

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What choice do I have other than to keep the faith and persevere? I could certainly choose to dwell in despair and get lost in the depths of depression, but would that solve my problems? I must keep my faith in God, trusting that I am not being abandoned even if it feels otherwise. I have to hold on to my unwavering determination to keep forging ahead, seeking out opportunities even amid discouragement that threatens to engulf me.

I try to cling to the small victories - the laughter of my kids echoing through our home, the moments of connection and love between us, profound insights from my Bible studies, kind words from a friend, a strong marriage, and quiet time dedicated to my art, among others.

These moments remind me that while monetary stability is essential, it isn't the sole measure of a rich and fulfilling life.

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I understand that my struggles are not unique, and millions of others are probably going through the same thing. However, it's easy to feel like I'm alone in my struggles and that no one can understand me. That's not true. To those who are going through similar struggles, I see you.

I cling to the hope that these trials will not define my narrative but refine my character. I will continue to trust in God's providence, tread this path, embracing the uncertainty while holding on to my unwavering courage to keep pressing forward, one step at a time.

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