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Last night @tarazkp mentioned in a post that people normally reflect on their lives after a health scare.I can't speak for others, but I certainly did. It is one of those things that you don't see coming and it knocks you. I am sure it would be just as easy to fall into a depression or something similar after a big "event'. I find it humorous how doctors call it an "event" as it covers  a broad spectrum.

I took it as a positive though as I saw it as a second chance, a second bite at the cherry. I was very lucky and was blind sided by a blood clot that hit my lung and is known as a pulmonary embolism. What was lucky is it took a chunk out on impact and I was still none the wiser. Other symptoms lead me to the hospital and it wasn't pleasant.I am the last one to ever get treatment for something as I brush health issues off which is not always good.

First of all it is being told what is wrong with you when you know something has happened ,but not sure exactly what has happened. They give you all the medical jargon and then it hits home what has played out. I knew I was one of the lucky ones and what goes through your mind is what if there are more? You initially start to worry but you keep it to yourself. You are in hospital so surely you are safe now, maybe anyway.

I was in there for just on a week having the various blood thinning injections and numerous scans. It was probably the most time I have spent analyzing my life. What I have done, what I have achieved and what I wanted to achieve. You dissect everything and I think that is normal after such a health scare.
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I sat on my hospital bed and went right back to school days up until present life. It is amazing what you can remember and the thought process was not jumbled up either. i could think clearly and it was probably the most important thing I have ever done. I realized what I needed to do and how to achieve these goals. It was as clear as day and the changes that i needed to make in my life now. I needed to fix me by putting myself first for once.

I changed and became a different person after this experience as I was basically resetting myself. What I had done up until now didn't seem to matter as it was all about the future and making the most of it. I can't make sense of it as I really haven't given it much thought since those days in hospital.

It is no fluke that I have started a new business and it is doing well as I had already processed what needed to happen. Nothing is as clear as how i am living my life now. Up until the health scare I was a happy go lucky sort of person and went with the flow. That person has now gone and I take things more seriously and make my own decisions. I know @soyrosa is a psychologist and it would be interesting to know if this is common in people or not. I feel as though I have taken back control of my life these days and leave nothing to chance.

I feel more alive than ever and am fully aware of so many things around me today. I just wish it wasn't  a health scare that changed me and I could have seen these things before. This would never have happened though as i wasn't aware of the opportunities I had wasted. I had been a fool and relied on many other people up until now. That part changed immediately and I distanced myself from everyone to change what needed to change.

These are some thoughts that I have been thinking about since last night and it is something I wanted to share. I think it explains why I have so much drive and energy and nothing gets me down.No more health scares though as they are not a fun "event".