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Nowadays I am very thankful and grateful that for a change I have no pain  in my body that will just make me so miserable. All are better except with some stiffness as I can't move much like before because currently I am walking like that of a baby that is just starting to walk. It is brought about by my back deformity which doesn't allow me now to make a balanced movement or I may as well stoop way down to be able to walk. But I don't want to stoop down while waking but it gives me a hard time moving.

I am just sad that even though I have no more pain in my body I still can't do the things that I had done or been doing before. So it just leads me to resort to blogging which is my second passion now which also gives me some fulfillment and joy as it also gives me monetary rewards in return. It somewhat eases my depression somewhat but of course I still wanted to be normal again and just hoping that in the future I will still get beter in my condition.

I am on the tract for my goal in my life which is to have a kidney transplant in the future. I may ask for a donor among my relatives and in return will give the donor of kidney something that will also help them in their life and I know in my heart and mind that it is still possible if SBD and STEEM would get much value one more time. 

If that would happen then I will be like born again like what my friend had told me when she had her kidney transplant about fourteen years ago. It is now my distant goal which will get fulfillment with the help of my steemian friends and God that will change my life for the best it can get.