So I wrote a [twitter thread](https://twitter.com/pizzaparty531/status/1030529402646528001) on the subject after seeing ContraPoints latest video on incels, [which you can find here](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fD2briZ6fB0&feature=youtu.be). I recommend watching it, it's really good. 

I wrote about my own personal feelings on hyper-negativity and how it affects those that are mentally vulnerable, such as myself when I was younger.  

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The new ContraPoints video on incels is really good, especially the small divergence into the trans self-hate circles on 4ch and other places. I used to be locked within those places for so long and always felt like shit about it. Life has been so much better since I just stopped looking at negative garbage. I totally get the mindset, and I empathize with people that find themselves trapped in that negative spiral of self-hate and hating their other self-hating associates, it's like a toxic virus that consumes every part of you and when you're in that environment as a teenager, you grow up around those people, you develop the nostalgia for that style of behavior that makes you always think back "man that was so fun" because you just ignore how awful you were overall, and just focus on le funny maymays and shit that you shitpost about and stuff like that. I totally get how people find themselves trapped there, and often they just don't realize it. I wish it were easier to help them realize that being a self-hating edgelord 100% of the time is unhealthy, but I dunno how.  
 
It's scary how self-hate can turn into outward violence in the case of incels. This is why I'm so vocally against the things I am against, because the culture we're all living in is trying to infect every one of us with similar kinds of viruses that lead to violence and hate. It's so important that we break the cycles of hate and division and look positively at each other and build a better future. The bad actors that take advantage of mentally vulnerable people and turn them into hateful followers are such a problem, too.

At my worst, as a super depressed and poor teen with so many self-image issues I can totally see myself being brainwashed and turned into a violent person if I had stumbled upon the wrong people or person online. It's so scary how easy it is. I don't believe every incel or 4chan-tran (pardon my rhyme I couldn't help myself) is a terrible person, but they need our help more than anything. Nowadays there are just so many evil fucks trying to brainwash them all over the place that sometimes it seems futile, though.

Anxiety plays a big part in all of it, too. When you're sad and lonely and hate yourself, it's hard to reach out to people that look happy because you feel "I'm not like them, I'm not like them, I can't be like them" all the time running through your head, and then on the other side you see people vindicating your thoughts of self-hate, and twisting them into some crazy cult-like rhetoric that's designed to empower your worst thoughts and feelings rather than empower your best thoughts and feelings, because you just don't feel like you have any. It's easy to just stay in the bubble and be with your "friends" that all hate each other but hate the "other people" more because hate feels natural and normal, at least to a lot of people that I know and myself when I was younger. 

Gosh, I wish I were normal sometimes...,

I don't really know how to solve any of these issues, it requires so much more than just personal effort. However, I can say that tolerating hatred and allowing it to run rampant, along with violence and division, can't be how we act as a society. Letting people get away with such awful, hateful rhetoric and then just go "welp, free speech!" is such a bad, bad, bad idea. These toxic ideologies not only kill actual people, but plant seeds within our heads that kill us later than sooner, as well as just drag our lives down from our peak potential. I want to be happy all the time, not just some of the time. I don't want to think about this nonsense, but if I just ignore it, it only gets worse. We can stop the cycle for future generations, and that's what I want to work toward.