I'll start by saying I'm not living my best life. Not only on the basis of finance, but also the area of fulfillment. As a child I had one dream-becoming an engineer. I'd gather spoiled engines and try to fix them and at one point I told myself I'd build something in the future that the world will marvel at, but then, a lot of factors didn't let that dream visualize.  Everyone I told about my choice of career discouraged me, and they were not ready to support me. My uncles felt I'd end up as a road mechanic alongside my aunty, my mum didn't like the idea, my dad only mumbled under his breath with no sign of encouragement. I was young then and could not have sponsored myself so I went into the medical field every one of them wanted.


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I studied a course I had zero interest in but managed to come out with a first class. Before our graduation, I told my friend I wouldn't practice the profession but rather enrol someday in a field I once desired. I've not been able to achieve this, but I know someday I may go into a course that relates to engineering. Sometimes I want to blame my parents for this stagnation and dormancy, but I can't live my entire life blaming people for the past, I have the present to make a change. There's a Chinese adage that says, 20 years ago was the best time to start, today is the second best time. If I was this wise when the discouragements came in, I would have found other means to sponsor myself. Maybe, just maybe  they would have supported me after seeing my zeal.

Currently, what's stopping me from achieving that dream I once had is finance and other goals I'm still pursuing. With age comes other responsibilities, and that's the reason years back would have been a good time to actualize it. As long as I'm working and solving other needs , I can say I'm not living my best life but there is a daily improvement to become better and that's what matters. Sometimes I feel ,if I had persisted , I probably would have won, but I was too weak to fight for that dream and that's what led to my defeat. With success comes sacrifices and pain- If only I knew earlier. But as long as I live, I still have a dream to fulfil.

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This is in response to [Scifi-multiverse prompt](https://ecency.com/hive-111030/@scifimultiverse/smpw9-winnersnew-prompt-science-of-self-review-k37) week 10. Do well to participate.