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I need someone to motivate me today. I figure Steemit is the most motivational place on the internet, so I am asking for your help.
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<p>A year ago my sister approached me with an idea to create a course on the website Udemy. I have owned my own small business for the last 12 years selling clothing on eBay (and other sites.) The idea was to make a course where anyone could learn how go to a thrift store and find high end clothing to resell online. 
<p> Having never actually taught anything before of course I was apprehensive. I resisted the idea, telling her that I didn't know if I wanted to do it. After months of bothering me about it and telling me that I had a skill that had value and I should capitalize on it, I reluctantly agreed.
<p>I have been doing my job for the last 12 years, it comes so natural to me that I have never really sat down and thought of my "process." I can walk into a thrift store and look through tens of thousands of pieces of clothing and walk out with a cart full that will make me money. I know which brands of women's clothing sell, and which don't. I know some brands so in-depth that I admin huge Facebook groups dedicated to them. I can even spot a rare item from across the store. 
<p> But sitting down and actually writing about my "talent" was hard. I didn't know where to begin since I learned all of these things organically over the last decade or more. But I worked on it for months, and then finally it was time to start filming the videos for the course.
<p> That was terrifying and awful. I wrote out a script for each video and tried my best, but it took at least 20 attempts for me to get through the first clip without messing up. I had a prompt to read and I still couldn't get it right. It took weeks of filming the videos for me to think they were even somewhat acceptable. I say acceptable because I still think I look insane. I could never be an actress, that's for sure. 
<p>Here is an actual screenshot of a video: Edited to add my thoughts as I was filming it! 

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<p> My sister and I have been working on the class for 6 months, and now she is finally doing the last steps to get it up on the website....

## ....and then came Steemit.

<p> Ah, Steemit. My newest obsession. I have been on Steemit for a little over a month now. I have spent at least 40 hours a week on this site since I started. Reading, learning, commenting and connecting with some really nice people so far.  It has become the first thing I check when I get up, and the last thing I check before I put my phone on my nightstand at night. The class? It has fallen by the wayside..
<p> But my sister, who is still working on the class has not let me forget about it for the last couple weeks, reminding me of some last minute things we need to do before launch. And now I feel reluctant to finish the class at all....but why?

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## I am terrified of failure.

<p> In my mind, if I never finish something, I haven't exactly failed at it. Motivating right? I should put that on a poster. I'm sure you'd never hire me to be your life coach, lol. In all seriousness though.. what is wrong with me? We are nearing the finish line of this project, but I need help taking the final leap and getting it out there. 

<p> So...Steemians, give me your best advice. Tell me about overcoming your fear of failure. Or maybe tell me how I shouldn't take risks at all.. I would love to hear your comments below!

<p>If you enjoyed my rant please leave me comment below. If you find my content worthy, I would love to have the honor of your upvote and or follow. I am looking forward to connecting with you! Steem on!

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