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**WARNING, DO NOT READ THIS IF YOU ARE OFFENDED BY FUCKING CUSSWORDS** .gif) [Giphy is pretty cool](http://giphy.com) **Strictly For The Boys** Before I get too far into this particular piece, it deserves explanation. I was a single father of two adorable children and at one time, I was a happily engaged father of three. A day to mourn comes once a year, forever will I question the righteousness of God, though I see that it makes me appreciate my other two kids that much more...fucking hard doing this. Nobody I know can truly relate so trying to talk about it is almost futile. Sounds like ranting and bitching about the past, things I cannot change, but it is truth and necessary to understand some of my writings. My third child was born with a genetic mutation known as Trisomy thirteen. His lungs didn't form all the way. I distinctly remember being in the delivery room, watching him make his way into the world just as his two older brothers had. Only, I noticed an irregularity on the top his head, there were what looked like sores, and thus those sores have left me sore... He was whisked away and for two agonizing hours, at least a hundred and twenty minutes without my third namesake… in all reality, I did not get to see my third son… Then back they came with the news... He would not live. We (my ex-wife and I) prolonged the inevitable as long as we could. She worked graveyards and I was the stay at home father, doing odd jobs here and there and hustling what I could. The machines, the machines! I could only stand them for a mere month before turning them off and taking matters into my own hands. Even with the iron lungs -as they were- in place, I still ended up bringing the poor soul back to life countless times each day. So I got rid of the machines...well over a thousand times did I breathe into him the breath of life and finally kiss him the kiss of death. If you would like to - talk to me personally on this matter. (sigh) But, I am thankful for my two fully functional and extraordinarily healthy boys. They are my world, and I am their rock, still standing strong, and growing in strength beyond strength... **A DAY TO MOURN** Today I mourn for the one that wasn't really born scornfully I raise my fist to the Lord and shake it vehemently questioning His so called authority. Curses be in my very words as though I were damning the entire earth to suffer the same fate as a Christian. No breath left. Four months from this day. Forty years for the sake of mankind's mistake...exactly to the day of his death. Think I'm kidding? Look to the stars and you shall know my wrath...my anger...my pain...it heads this way now. An earthquake to top all earthquakes...oblivious by their own bliss and self discovered joys...sick bastards the whole lot of them...what did I ever do to you? It's times like these when I just want to drink and drink and drink and drink until my blood is so filled with the poisonous firewater that I can barely stand or comprehend anything...teetering and tottering...to the point of falling face first on the bottle that brought me there...BUT...I do not...I am not weak like the mere human mortals that proudly and disgustingly call themselves men. I pity the fools that drown their sorrows in pools of puke and piety. But not them...not themselves, no, I don't pity them, I pity their souls, and hearts. They must be damned and heavy laden with regret and low self-esteem. Cannot rise above what they once were with the aches from their past dragging them down as a heavy anchor does a dinghy with a hole...the sorrow...I have felt sorrow from borrowed time that wasn't mine a full nine to just take the little time he never had...sadness, madness confusion and rage...all too obvious from the words on this page...happy fucking birthday...I love you...take care Lucky...for you truly are the lucky one not having to see all the shit men creep in and out of from day to day...you won't ever have to experience the pain of losing someone dear, the pain of a blade slicing your skin as you cut into your first apple...the pain of falling down off of your bike you just learned how to ride...the pain of that first tooth popping from it's readily rotted root...the pain of a friend moving away to a new place or even worse the pain caused by a woman...but then again...that's not worth missing...I say to you... you lived well my son...thank you for your time... **The Real Me...A Tale From The Darkside** Very few know who I am deep down way down inside where its dark where the epitimy of an evil split soul stays under lock and key keep it under control when shit gets tainted the angel fainted brush off those wings the lovebird still sings but you're deaf and blind by the ignorant schemes of friends falling behind... What lurks in the shadow of a malevolent mind? Should I take revenge, no, I already did. Now you know not to fuck with the kid. I really could make your life a living hell with an invoked pain inscribed in a spell but i'll choose not to, just in case you change your ways and decide to save face The demon so desperately wants to rise I can see the glimmer in the mirror in the back of my eyes... Try to take the plank out but alas, for nought, True love? What a happy thought. It doesn't exist, surely you agree, muddled by the puddles of hypocrisy, at least that's how love has treated me... Promises, promises, thats why she'll never be free. So fuck it, heavily guarded never shoulda started... Why put all that effort into it? If you just rely on the same old bullshit... Yadda yadda, bitch please point the finger in the right direction you'll fail miserably upon a spiritual inspection If you were a male I'da done kikked the shit outta you pounded your face with permanent scars released the anger much fear I sense in you I feed on it, like a great white does wounded whales you're helpless impaled on my spear of tears and enmity no longer you a friend to me I must call you enemy break. **Just a Few Beliefs...** (lyrics) I believe it's do or do not so I've got to fill my plate there aren't any second helpings only the time that I create people say that things are hopeless I say it's not too late i am god you are not and they thought they got it straight I'm here to turn this bitch on and light her ass on fire dig my dick as deep as she goes and even deeper inside her when i get in that zone, she reveals my desire unrestrained and unwired i am the tenor in the choir go ask anybody why i am the sharpest with a blade you cannot run you cannot hide i am the stranger in the rain you must comply with what i say, i cannot die i feel no pain only rage when i engage immortal combat turn the page so i figure with my blessings I'm setting stress aside give me rivers alive with cheddar better do more than just survive unleash me and no surprise i rise higher than the skies time to drink the nectar expect me to free more than just your minds as i completely defeat any god damned opponent forgiveness at my feet in my discreet atonement i show you demons i mean it as i reach out and choke you I'm not joking provoke me and all your dreams will be broken so don't push me you pussy get in and ring the bell this gifted wizard has lifted pain's tainted spells shifted the steel fisted to get that bad taste of hell out our mouths cuz you know damn well I haven't ever feared the reaper, i beat up death itself there are no what ifs there are no never can tells only whos whens whats whys wheres and how the hells as I expel all the benevolence by believing in myself Just like everything that I've done was to test you just to see if you believe that you can be the best too just to see if you believe in how a God has blessed you I pushed all your buttons like who the fuck are you? cuz i don't care where you're from and i don't care where you've been I don't care why you think you are here i only care if you pretend i don't care who you know or give two shits about your friends i giveth and taketh away (and give back) so quit the bullshit and start listening there is nothing you can say that i haven't already heard read between my lines and devour every word make good use of my time and don't forget to learn I am X40L1N don't take it for granted that the fire is burning You will be whatever your mind can conceive it to be open your wings and take flight over the tallest trees my river runs through it so prove and sail beyond the seas and don't say you won't cuz i wrote all you got to do- is believe. **I Will Not Give In...** (As the dark one tries to re-enter his life he weighs the pros and cons...) (He wonders in his heart and soul just where is it he belongs?) A ghost from the past tried to possess my body again today, I was scared and wasn't sure what I should say I played along all the while knowing that in my backyard, only good seeds will I be growing. I guess I was showing him that I could play along let the menial imp go ahead and sing that muted song but then greed started to seep in the hunger for money began to creep in think of the possibilities keeps runnin through my head and I feel I made a wiser decision instead two lil angels beggin me to be legitimate so I did a little courtsey and punked out on a pirouette then lust grabbed me by the shoulder she kept saying a few drops and it's over and then I got to thinkin damn she's purty maybe I should, what's a lil harmless flirtin my mind starts jerkin and I almost give in then i remembered that witch is a deadly sin not that it matters too much, I dealt with them quite a bit every now and again...I put up with their bullshit but that specter reckedher resurector not me go back to the grave in the name of what is holy You know I command the stars and all within I can conquer all shapes and forms of sin though I be but a man imperfect in my flesh I suggest you heed my words merlin the earthen wizard missals wiccan voodoo who do you think you can possess? not me or did you forget? I battled you and the reaper and we kicked ya bum. Stay out of the way of THIS... I bind you as I find you need I remind you I am the kind who turns the tables and burns the wax the eye with which I see god watches all your backs as I raise my rod and lift my staff I banish you back to the looking glass shattered; and you are no more you cannot come back through any of my doors <SLAM!> **Superhuman** (lyrics) I used to hate myself I used to rape myself I used to do all I could to deviate my self From the world... and all the bullshit this whole hellhole can kiss my thick dick A human race? Well, this time I win This is where you end and I begin. Nobody knows the truth They only hear what you Feed them the lies to prove You'll die before I am through I'll let everyone in on what is real All the lives you've tried to steal All the times you've made us feel Like these wounds won't ever heal I fear no more, fuck your war! I know what you're doing... I fucken told you before, don't ignore me... I am superhuman. I used to fill myself With shit to thrill myself Take a pill try to chill But still could not kill myself I did not want to face your half-assed life Without a trace I'd run and hide I'd slip away into my own demise But now I'm not afraid to make you mine And once the battle starts I'll tear this earth apart I'll bleed the diseased fleas that we are from her molten heart To make up for all of her scars... **Perfection** Goddamn that bastard, so fuckin stupid take a shotgun blast a hole in Cupid To think his aim is always on point Dumb son of a bitch musta been smokin a joint Burn his damn wings so the shit can't fly take a hot iron and scald his scoping eye Love? Yea right just a forgotten fairy tale stale to the ears, like unread mail give me the full plate defend my heart shining and greater than any fukked up lil sweetart art the canvass this is the intersection straight ahead on into perfection **Wuteva Bitch** Say one thing and do anotha glad you not my baby's mutha I'd fukkin slap you in your cheeks both of em go ahead with that shit then you so full of hate, I'll show you pain make your mutha fukkin eyeballs strain sprain your brain with my chemically insane technical sound pounding out cold rains my season is almost here- I'm bitter you bold to call me old man winter jack frost causing you to pause and linger on my magic fingers, like an anal splinter using my supreme letters of discretion making bedwetter first impressions cannot see I'm sending good intentions you only feel the defensive loss of direction gotta get it out sometimes ya know? can't stop think about a ground out ho can't stop to think about the way i flow can't stop to think just continue to go out the door to someplace new somewhere far far away from the likes of you and all you do, though you may be true it sticks in my side like hitch hikers glue so what you think imonna abandon my friends its just a screen away from all you immature kids so mean in the way I explain this shit but i found green grass and I won't be leaving it i keep it mowed to my perfect height i mold it shape it and spend each night petting and patting its tight ass just right living and laughing; so fuck you, awight. **(for my bro tho ya know?)** Been there bro I know the feelin had a few women get my heart reelin turn out to be nothing more than the season flavor of the week but I gots my pleasin fuck em all I say, or at least the cute ones take they asses out and have a lil fun maybe get some head hell make that bitch make you cum plant a big puddle on her triflin tongue i gots hate like you I been heartbroken fell in love but now im chokin back tears words unspoken fuck fear I keep on gropin my way up that ladder dont ever look back tell that bitch to kiss your ass thought about callin her makin a pass but never got round to it left the rest to chance If you cant join em beat em the oldest war man vs woman WHAT ARE THEY REALLY FOR sorry bro i know your sore so bond with me now and promise yourself you will not fall in love anymore. **(Judge not lest ye be judged)** For things in the past, things I HAD done things that don't matter now shouldn't ever tell anyone keepin my mouth shut from now until then so what if I'm a slut I know who's my real friends try to be honest tell someone who cares just being myself just trying to share but alas for nought some of the things I did even just the thought even though I was still a kid it's who I was not who I am but circumstances cause eyes to bend they don't see what is they just see what was forever they live in the past with no love I suppose tho I'm not really meant to swim being one of life's sharks with the beautiful dolphins where is fancy bread? in the heart or in the head a little nonsense now and then is relished by the wisest men love that book tho you read only the first chapter now you'll never know about happily ever after less by chance there is a change of heart and you truly wanna dance with a great white shark call me lenny this is my tale try hard to love but to no avail went from cant wait to see you to your past is wierd I've seen everything you know why give you into fear? I don't understand why one wouldn't wanna try I guess candy is only sweet until it starts to taste why who I am now who i was before I believe it's called learning I've walked through many doors the wild side the underground things such as this pushes me even farther down so far one day I'll be unseen act without talking know what I mean you can call me mad give me a jingle you can call me sad I make your spines tingle why the hell do I even write anything does anybody read will my bird ever sing where did my wings go I thought I was about to fly I almost lost hope now I... face the day a little more frustrated why do they make things so complicated make it simple I make it work I make it reflect back on you with a simple verse the power of the tongue the power of my sword you too shall be judged so sayeth the Lord three spirits shall come in forms unexpected be they friend or strange you have been connected before I am anything through what I am always learning I am by name the spiritual warrior *X40L1N* **Misfit** (lyrics) (chorus) No matter what they say (let me take the stage)<3rd refrain?> I will always believe (its time to set me free)<3rd refrain?> There is no place (let me release the rage)<3rd refrain?> For the likes of me (let me find my peace...)<3rd refrain?> (verse 1) no chance since I was born outcast now you are warned reality has grown its thorn society will feel the scorn I make believe that nothings real I pierce myself just to feel Disgusting sickening wretched knife The scourge of humanity they call life These puzzle pieces just don't fit Forced to swallow so much bullshit Make the pact and promise yourself Do all you can to fight this hell (repeat chorus) cold stares I try to smile who cares but my inner child purified when I run wild unsatisfied I get fucking hostile I am the vigilante on the prowl Tiger styles with my fierce growl Welcome to my dark dominion Where sin is just a matter of opinion There are but two things that exist One that makes me clench this fist Good and evil like night and day It all depends on how you play... (chorus) **The Battle of Entry** So strong is the sword, the written word. Mightier once spoken, from wind to the world... Loud and clear yet silently heard... In fact it impacts each woman man boy and girl. The spiral of time...each second it swirls... compassion and crime...resistance to curl.... persistence unfurls its existence to twirl on a coil that's spoiled from toils and tight turns as it burns it churns and we learn to cope. Malignant denial has defiled the hope. All the while exiled, we return with a rope to lasso the assholes in charge of the choke... the coke and the smoke all the impurities... the thugs and the drugs the insecurities... With brass balls we halt any further sureties despised by God...we are sent to cure a disease. The righteous ones-our mere thoughts can disrupt the plans and actions of anything corrupt... Ness' and Earps, Robin Hoods interrupt with eruptions the assumption is that we're nuts. But no, just blessed with the power you crave, foresight, insight, all that was lost by the knaves when they tried to make us slaves by numbering the page. Forsaken are they as we now stake our claims. **The New Man** Crippled ripples no chitter chatter. Flattened dimples in a lumpless batter. A rogue's a knight's a warrior's rabble. One more horse molded for the battle at Babel. We are not cattle no serial numbers. We are not slaves or toothless bumbles, we choose our names, we create the thunder. We stay humble in wait for their blunder. The world gets torn and crumbles asunder. We were once the hunted, now we are the hunters. Homerun hitting pitchers not sacrifice bunters. My whole team consists of annual gold-glovers, MVP's, all-stars, and silver sluggers. We take back the purses from those thieving muggers. Robins in hoods, we're fighters and lovers. We are the baddest of any of you mother fuckers. One on one we can kill you with our bare hands. We are deadly weapons, the most lethal of man. You are all scared shitless because this is God's plan. What is written comes to pass like bodies buried in sand. **(can ya hear me)** You mutha fukkas up on capital hill can you blind asses hear me? tryin to keep me down, tellin me to chill tell ya big boi, obama sold out obama sold out obama sold out listened to the speeches self contradictive tell you what mutha fukkas somthin gotta give bout to have to slang fuck that shit doing my best to scrape up legitimate under the table fuck it keep it low might as well be that high class gigalo only tell ya once ho, this dick aint free from now on I'm chargin you to be fuckin me gotta get money, anyway I can friends of mine robbed me, better hide your hands comin for ya now, dint rob just me dumb mutha fukkas robbed my family how I used to be you NEVER knew me fuck you and everytime I gave you my shirt straight off my back capitol hill perverts fuck em, they don't see me comin ever cuz I blind you with maces blunt side devils bout to sell my soul for world domination rule with an iron fist tyranny destroy the population sick of all this shit, take out ninety five percent rebuild everything nuke the face of the planet from the underground up, busta bust I hear ya time for me to start diggin again come neara If i had the time if i had a mic erytime i get close some bitch ass bites ruthless now fuck all o ya'll trust no one makes total sense now ima be a backstabbin son of a bitch fuck it anyway if its gonna be like this whos takin over, I AM. fuck a ripple I make tidal waves to destroy vietnam. got a line to China, from kuwait to pakistan heavily armed now in afghanistan I see what they doin hope you are prepared when the trojan horse opens you WILL be scared. Told ya so, but do ya listen hell no you want that ice to glisten so fuck you, get what you deserve new politickin I'm the military's reserve. My sword cuts into backs the way it attacks if you know you done fukked up you feel the effects... peace? **Fightin** while I'm writin incitin riots like a titan I'm the dove that's in flight n I'm the love of a life n the thief in the night n the reason is right n the season's in sight n their defeat is my excitement... here's why they compliant I'm the number one client I deliver doses of defiance in my martial style of science... they haven't seen the pure potential of this prodigy they haven't seen my superior striking ability they haven't seen any more than they want to see (what I've let them see...) I'm about to be unleashed, this beast of an arteest... like nothing they've ever seen... **Air Duct** To all the glam and glitz I rigged that bullshit with a sinker You polluted my rivers, what on earth were you thinking? Stealthy short and stalky, I got past your guards and blitzed you NHL hitting you stupid bitches and giving your asses blisters spin the wind affinity twitch, stitch a magicians twister... grip this I'm gifted, sifted out of the sticks and splinters pitching heat seeking splitters in the ninth a no hitter game over, I'm sober, the biggest shitting runt of the litter swinging sabers not in favor of the latest fads and styles... I am a quiet noise hear the loudest riot My inner child's the pilot keeping me from the violence we deny you your highness, bitch, now! bow to the brightest shining stars...like your roof is on fire... they don't care? you're just a god damned liar! They're scared of death, and afraid of live wires better call me sire, the white wizard whipping belial I got no interest in anyone that fibs squibs and pretends laugh now you know how I contend with the best men... Defending more than you simpletons can possibly comprehend using my telepathy to checkmate the heresies in governments because I AM. as I continue to expand my knowledge... they do everything they can to keep me out of college so i stay under the radar and all they see is a wallet the beginning of destiny or whatever you call it. I see the time is now, and this the place it's time to grow what I've sown as i cut to the chase you think you mother fuckers own this human race it's time you clones are shown my Amazing Grace. **You Get What You Give** see, it's like this...I been disrespected too much...undeserving of the way I been treated...I had given all the women in my life the utmost respect and trust...I know now that that was a naive mistake never to be made again...sorry...but uh... I can't give two shits about a typical bitch. Why the fuck you think it's just me and my kids? Treat me like shit? You just fell in the abyss. No more kisses...just suck this thick dick. All you bitches care about is money fast cars and clothes A lil bit o' jewelry turns you all into hoes I fucken hate women spinning all out of control Get the fuck out of my rolls, just lick my balls. Got no more love for ya, just a cock you can suck. Make it cum bitch, then IÌm going to fuck you in the butt. Force my fist in your pussy, tear your cunt up and leave you lonely on the floor you stupid ass slut. You deserve nothing but shit for your lack of respect Shut the fuck up I ain't even through yet I curse you with a lifetime of horrible relationships Tired of your selfish games and foolishness maybe one day one of you bitches will be true maybe one day I might even love one of you you know all the things you should and shouldn't do and how to keep me-but until then...FUCK YOU. **Got to Let IT Out For a Second** as it approaches...the midnight hour I can feel the power take control of the stone sour now or never I sever the devils from ever coming anywhere close to clever so whatever you think you can try to occupy my mind I tell you time after time I'm so unkind to the blind aspirations of an overzealous friend too jealous to comprehend that this is where I blend all the spices and herbs so concerned with what you learned yesterday as I learn each day a new way to convey all I can say and explain to this race that I'm not putting up with it all the bullshit lick on my dirty dick I'm tired of the power trips all of the cowards whips won't leave any stripes on the red white and fighting nothing but invisible ghosts that are hosting to toast an explosive remorseful contortionist's horror as I seep through the doors of the unknowing explorers conquering more than you could in any war have I told you before as I exert all the hurt in each line and each verse intertwined with my pines and confined in a curse got to let it out for a second these weapons connected to what I know is unexpected but THEY wrecked it go check it my telekinetic inspections gives the horses directions to extorted elections and their greedy beguiled imperfections a piece of a mind that's certain you can't stop what's burning you can't clock what's turning And you definitely cannot drop your burdens. **Goodbye** If you had been real and not a lie I'd have made you so happy, you'd probably cry. Full body massages upon request each night your clothes would be pressed, your boots would be shined You surely are no Anne of Green Gables you're one of the fools in Aesop's fables You fit perfectly into many bad labels and you tried to tell me you were an angel... I'm taking your rented wings and burning your fake halo so sayeth the Lord, He knows of our pain so... any person involved in your devious fiasco is cursed to suffer the same fate you are attached to All the tears my children have cried are probably less than the times you have lied you're another one of those fireflies and you've been in the jar too long and up and died Say good bye to mommy..."goodbye mommy, goodbye" "hey mommy...we promise we won't cry..." "hey mommy, we know your love is a lie" "go ahead and die mommy...go ahead and die..." **Ranting and Raving** Lord hear me now, I felt the pain I can't even look at that bitch's face it fills me with sadness madness and rage all to obvious since you've seen the page we had something special but not good enough the sex was great gentle ecstatic and rough but you lied to my face that shit isn't love just another notch on my dick cuff and all that stuff, bitch please go away get lost go to hell die from cancer and fade into the shadows never to escape down in the gallows of my epitomizing hate you're a living dead girl, I gave you life you turned your back on the one that cried you turned your back on the one that cried you turned your back on the one that cried remember that night? you told me you'd never leave bunch of bullshit, to think I actually believed a word you said they still resound in my head I'm fed up with thinking about you and all the stupid shit you do just stop calling no you can't see my kids! to think I was falling in love with this hmph. pshaw. pish. piffle. fuck you. 