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**Nothing is wasted.** 

No difficulty, hardship, humiliation, *annihilation...*

It is all compostable. Re-usable. 

Y'know what LOSS + PAIN can turn into... once decayed?

#### Wise, actionable power, that's what.
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I am near the middle of my life. 48.

At this point, most of my similarly-aged peers are enjoying 
the peak of their careers, if not early retirement.

And I am hustling. Hard. Like a 20-something year old.
Feels like I have been in start-up mode, forever.

It trips me up, whenever I fall 
into that shame-dumping comparison trap.

But then, I just had the Real-Eyes-ation 
that... hey, wait a minute... 

...shame flipped inside-out, can be A STRENGTH!!

I can, and do, [**stand for**](https://d.tube/#!/v/erikaharris/ads60ze6) those who may think
they are TOO OLD, or TOO BROKE, to pursue 
the better Life/Way that their heart keeps asking for.

I am defying those limiting ideas, as a 
single Black woman, living abroad, with no "established"
means of support. It has not been easy. *At all.*
(My life as an independent freelancer, 
has been consistently inconsistent.)

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The economic insecurity I've lived with 
is slowly sorting itself, as I sort myself.

It has also prompted me to be more transparent 
about the pain-points and pitfalls 
of diving into a new life, with no plan. 

Please don't judge me about the plan-less part.
 
The flip-side of my free-spirited impulsiveness, 
can be seen in the overly-prepared bench-warmer, 
who only dives into endless research... 
while living an unchanged life. 

Let's stop judging, and start learning from, each other. :-)

Economic insecurity has been the most ruthless teacher 
I've ever known/had, AND I AM READY TO GRADUATE THIS LESSON!

It is also, ironically, my credibility. 
The joy and peace so many say they see in me, 
is a testament to **inner richness,** 
because outer riches have not yet arrived.

### Life and Consequences leveled me.
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So I chose to get the most out of that messy brokenness. 

Remove the false parts.
Feature what's true.
And share with you.

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### If you haven't yet, please check out ⬇️:
# [To those who stand for beauty.](https://d.tube/#!/v/erikaharris/ads60ze6)

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