<center>http://gabriellecd.vornix.blog/wp-content/uploads/2018/07/girl-1149933_960_720.jpg</center> <h2><center><strong>Fucking Diary</strong></center></h2>
I lost myself
I don’t know who I am anymore
I lost my faith, my hopes, and even my dreams
I’m going in circles and that scares me
Because I had a north and I got lost in the journey
I want to scream, cry and disappear
And the reason is simple; I’m tired of being screwed
I’m tired of not being able to express myself
I wish I could tell everybody fucks off
And don’t bother me anymore<div class="pull-right"><img class="size-medium wp-image-81 alignright" src="http://gabriellecd.vornix.blog/wp-content/uploads/2018/07/sad2-300x300.jpg" alt="" width="300" height="300" /></div>
I wish I could be the same kid who played with toys
I just want to be free
However, every time I try, something or someone pushes me back
It is kind of funny how once I had it all
My friends, my family, my life
I had stories to tell, moments to share
Now I look me in the mirror and I don’t recognize me anymore
The sparkles in my eyes are gone
The smile is fake
And I feel that nothing but misery in my soul
I lost my faith in me
And truly I lost my faith in god
I prayed a lot
I begged him for nothing more than hope
But every time I finally move on and I take one step forward
Somehow the entire thing I built tends to fall
I don’t want to quick but there are so many wounds to heals
And I forgot how to be strong enough to do it
I see nothing more than darkness inside and outside of me
So, it’s time to not suffer anymore
And it’s time to discover that unknown place beyond life
I hope you can forgive me about this
But I can’t handle this pain anymore
This is a battle that I finally lost.

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<h2><center><strong>Dear Diary</strong></center></h2>
<p><div class="text-right">30 Days have passed since I wrote you that scary farewell letter<br>
I can’t be more ashamed because it is impossible<br>
I tried to kill me many times but I failed<br>
That’s the real miracle I begged to lord<br>
A change in me<br>
I see everything in another point of view<br>
And now I can feel me; I can see the sparkles in my eyes again<br>
I can laugh, smile even I let people hug me<br>
Because I didn’t notice before<br>
But I was the only responsible to push away people around me<br>
I promise myself keep trying to be free<br>
And also breathe, feel the wind, touch the plants and live my life<br>
Don’t give up in the worst scenario<br>
Scream if nobody wants to hear me<br>
Cry if I feel overwhelmed<br>
And the most important, fall in love with myself<br>
I figured out that’s is crucial to love myself<br>
If I wanted to share my love with someone else<br>
So, it’s time to not suffer anymore<br>
It’s time to work hard, heal my wounds and be happy in this strange world<br>
Achieve my goals, conquer my fears<br>
I just want to discover a new me.<br></div></p>

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Source: <a href="https://pixabay.com/en/girl-woman-emotions-expressions-1149933/">1</a>,<a href="https://pixabay.com/en/dark-face-girl-person-woman-sad-1869803/">2</a>,<a href="https://pixabay.com/en/actress-model-young-woman-fashion-2868705/">3</a>,

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