I tell myself STOP resisting Find the LESSON!
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0.000 HBDI tell myself STOP resisting Find the LESSON!
 *Denial has been my very close friend lately. Time to kick it to the curb!* For a while now I have been living as if this is just a temporary thing raising my grandchild. Waiting for my daughter to miraculously come to the door and say "I am back and I am all better, you can come home with mommy now". It's not that I don't have hope that it could happen, its just not. I just can not live in THE WAIT anymore. The wait way of thinking! I know some of you all know what I mean. It's starts something like this- "Mom I am going to rehab, can you take care of my son, I will back in no time" -or- "Mom, I am calling from the jail, I got busted but as soon as I get out I am going to do the right thing and be a good mother to my son" Days turn into weeks, and months, and now years. Time to stop waiting I would say. I am not giving up hope..I am just giving up the wait mentality. I will always have hope for my daughter to get well and have a successful recovery, thats my baby girl, my youngest child, I nicknamed her Punkin when she was just a baby. I love her EVERYDAY, ALL THE TIME and with ALL MY HEART!  Life is a journey where you just have to keep moving forward. There’s no turning back. Most of us will experience hard decisions, stressful moments, and difficult issues that will impact us in one way or another for the rest of our lives. Hard times happen. They teach us lessons, make us fierce, and give us a deeper sense of self. After all, would sitting in the sun mean as much if you hadn’t of experienced the tornado first? We want to bury our heads in the sand and pretend everything is honky-dory, as if these bad things aren’t happening to us. We try to numb ourselves from the pain and reality of the situation. I know I do this. But eventually, you have to face it head on. There is no other way. Eventually, hopefully, we find ourselves grateful for those hard times, which in turn may make us appreciate the good times even more. I am continually working on all of this, but then again, isn’t that the point. I want to believe that adversity is meant to knock us ON course, not the other way round...lol... trying to focus on looking at the situation differently. Call me crazy but I was thinking if I start cultivating acceptance in my life right now, I'll hopefully cope with future crises in a different way and view them from a different perspective. I will with a little luck and a prayer accept instead of resist. So instead of staring at the closed door in front of me, or getting tired and bruised when I try to break it down, I should turn around and see how many other windows I have open. I wanted to let you know how much I value you reading my post, I am truly grateful. Original photos 