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# Not Sure About Steemit Anymore
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The point of this video is not it's content. It's probably not even worth watching to be honest as it's just me wittering on about being fed up with Steemit and feeling competitive and not knowing where to go from here.

It's more an attempt to break the overthinking cycle and just get a video up in the hope that from here it will get easier.

I've been talking about doing this for weeks. I've watched videos I made in the past, created an elaborate plan to start a group to support each other, tested equipment and waited to be in the right mood.

This morning I was most definitely not in the right mood but last night @lloyddavies posted a video, [Just Jump In](https://steemit.com/vlog/@lloyddavis/12fu0knr#@gillianpearce/re-lloyddavis-12fu0knr-20180222t202019095z) and in a gung ho moment of enthusiasm I posted a comment:

>Right that's it. I've been procrastinating for more than 2 weeks. Tomorrow I'm going to just jump in and make a video for DTube!

However, after half an hour on Steemit, reading posts about voting bots and then finding myself muted by someone, I was not in the mood to make a happy, clappy video about what a wonderful time I was having.

No siree. Today was not going to be the day. In fact, I thought, I might not post at all. So there!

Then in comes Lloyd again with a reply to my comment saying he was looking forward to the video. Hmm. OK. Maybe I will then.

The result is a video that tells it how it is in that moment. It's not a side of myself I particularly like and, in the end, that's what motivated me to actually post it. It appealed to a side of me I do like - the rebel side. The side that says, stuff it, who cares if it's crap. I'll post it anyway.

Life is not only about the times when everything is going swimmingly although that's how it mostly looks when viewed through videos and posts which tend to only show the good bits.

I feel a bit like I've shown you my worst side so anything I post after this will be better. Maybe it's not that bad anyway. Who know's? Not me I haven't watched it! &#128513;
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