FAILURE IS NEVER THE END
hive-166408·@hopestylist·
0.000 HBDFAILURE IS NEVER THE END
<div class=text-justify> Today has been one of those days when I don't really feel myself, I have been doing a lot I'd say but then I just don't feel me at all. I have promised myself to always make my write up early but today was not just that day for me. Well, it didn't just happened that way, I've been expecting my admission for sometime now and yesterday the person giving me information about things asked me to come to the school to do some things which he saw were lacking. ***  *** This is my fourth year at home after I wrote my first west Africa examination and failed, I had to write it again two years ago and I barely made it, that's not enough I also wrote Jamb twice and surprisingly I got the same score for the two and I also wrote my post UTME in my preferred school of choice and I also barely made it, in fact, I failed! And now I'm giving people hard time trying to help me out because of my laziness to study as I should.  And that's the reason why I was asked to come to the school and I had to travel down today but somehow I think I have failed again, no I have failed again. I feel really so ashamed of myself and I sometimes wonder when I will ever get it right once and for all, I hate it that I'm bothering people so much but I don't think I'm really sorry because if I am I should have passed the last exam I wrote but no, I didn't.  I don't know if writing about what a failure I am will help anything but this is what I feel like talking about it and maybe it will make me serious with studying. I've wasted my dad's hard earned money again but I'm promising myself that this will be the last time that will ever happen, all I need to do is study and have the right information at the right time and I know God is always going to be with me as long as I'm with him. I thought I did my best but seeing that I keep on failing, it is obvious that I didn't. ***  *** People say I'm smart, but that doesn't make me brilliant, I'm an average student, I always barely passed my exams and I think that is my problem, since I at least passed my exam during secondary school, I never really cared to do better. Although I did read but not as I should and that has gotten me to where I am now. I'm barely good at anything related to studying and I think it's because of my mindset towards studying, I have to change it, I will change it so I can get a different result.  I'm really hurt that it took me four years to realize that I should be better, but then, I'm also happy I have realized it after all and it's time to take action and change things for the better. I'm not going to think myself as an average person anymore, I'm more than that, I have a God who is always there for me, he has given me a brain and I'm going to use it so well, I'm never going to see myself as not worth it because I'm worth it all.  As long as I have life I know that I have the time to set things in order and that is what I'm going to do. I'm no longer going to wait around for opportunities to find me, I'm going in search of opportunities and leave my comfort zone, I've been there for too long. I'm no longer going to settle for less, I'm not born to be less, I'm born to be the best of me and that I will be!  *I know I can do all of these and I will! Until next time, stay **AWESOME!!!** (I will too, hehe).*  ***<center><sub>Thumbnail [Image source](https://pixabay.com/es/photos/falla-fallar-dedo-puntero-3096225/) | second photo [source](https://pixabay.com/es/photos/positivo-puede-autodeterminaci%c3%b3n-2470506/)</sub></center>*** </div>
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