I understand you guys like process posts and promote them more than anything else... but...

Why does 4 hours long videos of me actually modeling things from A to Z showing in detail every step of what i do, does not count as the same ? Brain cannot compute, it's the quintessence of a detailed process.

I was wondering this, because my posts did lost a lot of traction recently, but you have to understand i also spend tremendous amount of time creating what i do, and it's kind of hard to be all the time writting huge essays about what i do, and you guys really like in-depth self analysis of your own idea process and design thoughts and all, but again, why isn't getting a full live video and then, a full upload of 4/ 5 hours video not just the same or even, way better than posting an article full of pictures and explanations ?

And here i am, sounding like i'm bitching maybe, and i'm sorry but, i spent litterally 12 to 14 hours a day modeling, animating, and trying to get things moving forward and making fast progress if i can on the game, and it will be a free game for you to enjoy.

And to add a liiiittle bit of bitterness to it, and to be open, perfectly frank and 100% honest, this past week i've gone through my own funds to upvote some of my posts, yes, shamefull isn't it ! haha ! But you actually get it back within a week with a little benefit over it so it's not a big deal.

Not to whine only about me actually, I noticed also, with the influx of a lot of newcomers on the platform, the visibility thing does not really, kind of work, even with getting more reputation. I got less and less real upvotes even tho i got more and more subs. wich is worrying as if half of them or more, are just bots or whatever waiting for an opportunity to upvote something, and are not really interested in what you do, the content... There is just more flood, much more flood of new posts and very few people get upvoted as well as newcomers, when i first came to steemit 2 months ago, i got very nice upvotes on my introductory posts from the community, but now, i saw newcomers with good art skills or something really artistically original, or nice, get completely ignored.

From being new and posting, the scability of real upvotes just fell through the floor, it's like, once you got discovered once people just don't care anymore.

Last month i was able to help my mom with bills, investing a little bit in steem power to try to elevate a little bit my account to follow jerry banfield's and other very high people's advices, but doing so didn't bring me more of anything, maybe i am doing something wrong ? Or done something wrong ? I am the kind of guy that allways question himself and i also try a lot of new things and new methods, all the time. I learn everyday, read and while even i am modeling and animating things i keep videos of teaching things running on the side on a tv monitor.

This month it's another story... I didn't get a single post upvoted like i did last month, it's almost all coming from my own steemit wallet, wich is not very good to say the least, it's kind of worrying me too, if people saw some of my youtube video's you know that i am plagued with a bunch of disabilities and health issues, and me and my mom try our best to scrap by every month and steemit was the very first platform that ever provided me some proudness to be able to help my mother financially and we had a "normal" less worrying month out of this.

So... I... don't know what to do... I know that i'll keep on working on the game no matter what, that's not even a question or if or yes or no, this is not going to go away anytime soon. and i am proud to say i have a LOT of ideas for this game, more than i can even speak about in a blog post.

I thought about making DTube videos, but as disabled as i am, i am not very beautyfull, i look washed out, tired most of the time, pale, and does not give a very good feeling because, let's be honest, the winter never do me any good as i can barely go outside because of asthma and FAST asthma bronchitis i get, and my immune system take a huge toll because of low daylight exposure. ( and i don't want to base my relationship on pity only, it's disruptive, bad, is not a thing you can sustain on the long term, and i want a long term relationship with the people that follow me. Because i still have sooo many many many ideas, projects, be it medieval, sci fi, racing games with steem / steampunk cars, flying fight games with Steemdya biplane, and sooo many many many other characters i want to draw, make game about, and even in years and years make a little kind of smash bros game with all these heroes ^^ )


I'm not sure trying to get more exposure through Minnow support and smartsteem bots have done any good for visibility actually, when i see the state of the tag "gamedev" it doesn't look like people are here on the platform to support our kind of indies as it receives very little upvotes. So i am torn, between continuing to try to elevate my account SP, and keep the little i get for groceries / food and bills to help my mother out if this keeps going the way it is.

I am sorry if i sound not the most positive, steemit is still a very very good platform, and i can only be thankfull it exists; as it provides something that i never had before in my whole life. I still strongly believe in it, maybe it's me, maybe i'm not good enough, maybe i'm not taking the right approach or doing the things people want from me ? 

But there is very little information, people don't really express themselves, other than "it's actually pretty good ! " so i don't know if there is anyone out there disgruntled or confused , not so happy about what i do, and in wich way i can do better...

Sorry for the long rambling, that was me and some of my thoughts...

Oh and i work so much in 3D and animation that i tried to make a little St Valentine's day post but got burried under everything else, so there is the beginning of the sketches i wanted to make about it :

I wanted Steemdya to offer a flower to a strong ennemy / boss in the game ^^ (her design was not finished completely yet and subject to change, she's half cyborg and kind of huge ):

![toosmall.jpg](https://steemitimages.com/DQmUZwzZZ5BRfREbpyDJRxxtdPuxZEcLGYhGKrrz5ec2pGG/toosmall.jpg)

She would say something like "that's cute and all, but you're too small of a guy for me..."

And then :

![Come here.jpg](https://steemitimages.com/DQmc1atW91ZbS4Vvdhnvnw1wraDinHLgYUAgrA255R3FX68/Come%20here.jpg)

Come here... xD

That's about all !