Hi, guys!

Today is the day when I decided to celebrate my birthday. I haven't done it for a long time, many years, but this year I wanted to change this tradition, and I decided to invite guests and throw a small party. I'm very nervous, so I woke up very early and I don't even know if I'll be able to sleep again. I still need to shoot a short video for the blog with the results of the draw, but these are small things, I'll do it quickly. The main thing is that guests will come today and I hope everything goes well.

So.
About a month ago, I had a final fight with my best friend and now I feel bad about it, but I understand that this relationship was already beyond saving. And now I want to build my life so that I don't suffer because of this. I want to build a replacement for them. This is one of the reasons why I want to celebrate my holiday. I want to strengthen my other friendships. And I hope to take the first step towards this today.

I am also planning to work actively with a psychotherapist to understand the situation and the reason why I feel so uncomfortable because of it and to restore my mental balance again, and also to try to establish new friendly contacts, to look for something new for myself. Because I am sure that in this world there is someone else who could become a good friend for me, the main thing is to look.

Have a great day everyone!
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