When everything pushes on you

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When everything pushes on you
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<p>Hi, guys!</p>
<p>So, I must say that I reached the moment when I nearly give up. Seems like my mental disorder is winning me this time (and by the way that's the main reason why there was no video last week - I just can't step over my anxiety).&nbsp;</p>
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<p>Yesterday in the evening I talked to my husband and said that I'm feeling worse and worse, and have no idea what to do. Well, it's obvious what I should do - I must visit my doctor again, tell her, what's happening, then restart my psychotherapy program again ect. But the thing is - is such state even if you realize what you should do you feel paralyzed. Even at the moment, writing this post and technically knowing that I must pick up the phone, register for doctor's appointment I feel so twisted and this feeling in my hands - my fingers just live with a separate life, I can't control them.</p>
<p>I also know that I should stand up, take Astro, take my skate and just spend at least a few time outside, but it's so hard to even get out of bed. Bed becomes a hiding place when you feel high anxiety level. And often you keep yourself safe with oversleeping.&nbsp;</p>
<p>I hope I'll manage to take the phone and just make doctor's appointment. First step, huh?</p>
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<p><strong>I wish you all the best and will be happy if you'll support me with vote:)</strong></p>
<p><em>Love, Inber</em></p>
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