Week 138: And if I had been as smart as she was in my decisions maybe...just maybe.
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0.000 HBDWeek 138: And if I had been as smart as she was in my decisions maybe...just maybe.
<center>   </center> <div class="text-justify"> Happy weekend **Happy weekend**, today is the day of truth, honesty and bringing out those thoughts that perhaps we have not shared with anyone. Have I compared myself? Well yes, and I hated this practice for a long time, since my dad always used to tell me why aren't you like Mrs. Lugo's daughter, for example, and whenever he did I cried, because I felt it was very unfair and above all they didn't want the person I was. I defended myself from him, I was not a bad person, a good student, a good daughter and person. Not perfect, but I didn't do anything that a child my age wouldn't do, play, eat, fight with his siblings. </div> <center>  <sub>My Friend Geimar with her family</sub>  </center> <div class="text-justify"> I grew up and in psychological analysis they tell me that I married young, very young, for the fact of leaving home and being able to be me, but aha at the hands of one yoke for another, besides this marriage ended in divorce and I went back home. Here I began to compare myself to myself, who was defending me from my own thoughts. I started to see the lives of my friends like Geimar, Erley, how their decisions led them to have what I always dreamed of, a house of their own, a stable marriage. That makes me feel that the decisions I have made have not been good in any aspect, from falling in love to getting married. It makes me think about what would have happened if I hadn't married so young, to think about my career choices. I immediately end up feeling even worse, because from my choices I was left with two beautiful daughters that I love, and I shouldn't be wishing I was someone else, or had done things differently. Being someone else would mean not having them in my life. Currently I am still working to achieve those things I long for, maybe I won't make it, or I will make it too late and I won't be able to enjoy that dream come true. But I cannot be them, I want them, I do not envy them, although I am a little ashamed of where I am in life, or of the life I have decided to live. I am filled with other joys and I wake myself up telling myself to enjoy the most important things in life and to learn to love myself and defend myself as I did before with my dad. </div> <center>  </center> <div class="text-justify"> My life did not result in that, but I did graduate, I did work, I do work, and even though I move only thanks to my legs and public transportation, and I sleep in a house that does not belong to me, we have health, we have union, and I protect my daughters very well. </div> <center>   <sub>Edited in powerpoint</sub> Translated with www.DeepL.com/Translator (free version) </center>