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## I don’t want to write for money.

Lately I’ve felt in a panic, like I’m missing out on the opportunity to make side income through writing. I think to myself “If I write one or two decent articles per day, maybe I can put aside enough to take a trip with the family, or pay the car insurance!” That thought is constantly going through my mind, day and night. **The hustle**. I’ve never been a ‘hustler’, but since getting into crypto I have developed a hustle mindset, and I don’t really like it. Always watching the market, always looking to make the good trade, at the right price. 


## That has never been why I write.

I write because I enjoy it, I write because it’s who I am.

The moment I start writing for money is the moment I lose my inspiration. Let’s leave that for the **good** writers, it’s not for me. I feel stuck, without any inspiration. This leads me to the panic of what ifs.  What if I've somehow run out of interesting things to say? What if I can't get out of this funk? What if Steemit implodes and I didn't make the most of the opportunity while it was around!?

What do I write about, and for whom? For the people on Steemit with the powerful upvotes? No, that’s not it. I must write for myself, that has always worked best in the past.

My writing has been very successful here, by my standards, mostly because it’s the first place I’ve published. $100 on an article, to me, is fantastic. I’ve always been too frightened of rejection and bad critiques. The additional income from posting is a great opportunity that I’m thankful for.

Recently I wrote [On Inspiration](https://steemit.com/writing/@jamtaylor/on-inspiration-writing-from-life-experiences), and where to find it. Well lately, I’ve felt stumped. This is because I’m getting caught up on maximising rewards and not about being authentic and sharing from my experiences.

The best thing for me to do is disconnect, spend some time in nature and do some introspective meditation. Also, to just let life happen.

## Everything is temporary.

This moment is fleeting, the mood will pass, and inspiration will come.  Don’t be afraid of a little writer’s block, especially if it’s not your bread and butter — your main source of income! When creativity is forced, the result tends to be watered down. That’s been my experience, anyway.

This weekend I will take a break from the platform, go out into ‘the desert’ as it were, and sit quietly. Maybe the muse will speak, maybe she won’t.

We’ll see.

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### Have you ever felt a creative block?

What did you do to get over it?

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