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At the time, it seemed the right thing to do. Maybe not the smartest, but the right thing.
She couldn't just leave him behind. He never would make it without her . that she knew.
Of course, now she knows that he could have and would have and that she could have used 10 years of her life looking out for herself instead of making him a priority.
But it seemed the right thing. Everyone was saying it - some even still say that.
That made her mad. Especially when aunt Mathilda kept saying that it was the right thing to do. 

Women are supposed to sacrifice. What the fuck does that mean?
Now she knows that all those books she read as a little girl gave her that idea. The feeling that as a woman, that is what she has to do. Suffer in silence.
Maybe not suffer. Oh, how dramatic she can get. She had to smile at that part. But then again, not being able to choose, or choosing that what doesn't make our souls sing is a kind of suffering.
Not the kind of the empty stomach or the never-healing wound on the body. But the soul got a little stab every time she was choosing to deny herself. The stab wounds were invisible but bleeding just the same. Bleeding the joy out of her life. Even the will to live. Why go on if it felt like misery all the time. It would be so much easier to just roll over and be done with it. That really would not have been smart!

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