Facing my fears...
earthnation·@nomvula·
0.000 HBDFacing my fears...
Today...I did not dance...it is my first day home after being away for a whole month. I could not wait to go to my favorite beach and dance my prayers, but when I got there, I was overcome with feelings of confusion.  Voices in my head asking me who I am and who do I dance for? Who do I channel energy to and for? I answered myself firmly that I dance for the Great Central Sun my daily prayers... As I stated that, clouds started to gather in front of the Sun and although this was my mere perception of life, I kind of felt disheartened. The energy also has changed from the last time I had danced here. Although Tigerlillies were blooming and blossoming, and grass was growing all over the sand, I felt unwelcome in this space. It was my sacred space a month ago and yet so much has changed. I noticed houses I had never noticed before and I got eerie visions and feelings at their sight. I am still stunned and shocked, but the words..."this too shall pass" echoed through my being. Maybe it signals a time for reflection and quietude. Time for nurturance and self-love. Maybe it is time to find a new sacred space, a new place where my Spirit can dance my hearts desires... I do have this deep wish, inside of the depths of my heart, to find that place where I can dance daily as well as find rest for myself in it - as it will be my home as well. When one meditates in a certain spot one raises the energy of that place and the surroundings. If it is done over a long period of time, the energy of the place truly becomes filled with magic. But when you stop and you go back a while later, it might not be the same as it was before. The energy has changed...and it might just be my perception, but a very important ethic I practice is- "go where one is celebrated", "walk on the path of the least resistance". Today...I felt resistance and It might have been to signal a change in my Life direction and to the fact that Life is a constant change of beingness. All will be will and even these moments of reflection has to happen in Life. I feel gratitude for my wolfdog for being such a wonderful guide and friend to me. He was with me and I gave him a good wash in the Ocean and I played with him. He helped me to find my way back to my heart and gratitude filled my heart at knowing I am not alone here facing my fears. Tomorrow will be another day and wishfully I will find my spot in the sunshine to dance my prayers again. Thank you for listening! lots of organic love Nomvula the Greeninglady