I love you so very much, Carol. You done real good with this one. I am sobbing over here. 

>Do they see no invites come from me?

This line really got to me. We see the joy of others, always with tinges of both envy and hope. Some do see no invites; those are the fastest friends. Will an invite to a memorial satisfy? No, indeed it will not, which is why I cannot face that task. Herculean. Not happening, at least not now. 

xoxoxoxoxoxoxo