I have been seeing quite a few of these top 3 scary things posts around, you can have a look @phctop3 and the topic is Scary Characters. I guess that is from movies but it gets a whole lot scarier when you extend it to real life. <br><br>

When I think of fear I think of something that is dreadful to consider, that is to say, it is worse than just scary, in my mind it is a fine line in definition but worlds apart in feeling. <br><br>

I was wondering what it is that I do fear, and then I wondered why I could not really accept anything I came up with as a valid fear unless it involved violence or just a shitty prolonged death. <br><br>

Death should be quick then it is not a biggy, so that would be one of the main things I would say makes it a fear. Although the fear of violent death is not a unique thing, which makes it not really worth mentioning if it is such a generic thing.<br><br>

"Oh, look at Captain Fucking Obvious here being afraid of torture or being buried alive. Fucking dimwit."<br><br>

Maybe there is something deeper and more personal, something that others might not fully understand even if it is just a few? Would that make my fear special enough to mention? 

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<h2>Go to your corner. </h2>

I reached for low hanging fruit and thought, well I am alone, ah but there is a worm. I am not lonely. I have never really been lonely, I don't think I fully understand the term.

Even at times when things might seem overwhelming and you feel there is no one you can turn to, and there might actually be no one because a person then also isolated themselves. <br><br>

Not in glad wrap but by keeping it all inside, dealing with it themselves that is just being alone, and being sad is probably just because you still have to find a way to pay the debt, not lose your job, or get over the other person leaving.  <br><br>

Now I am attributing a bit of a heavier tone to the meaning of lonely because just being sad no one wants to spend time with you or your family do not want you around is a pity party. You will get over it when you troll a bit online. <br><br>

So alone or lonely is not a valid fear. Unless... You are old as in fuck old as in I will never reach your age-old... So about 60, your partner of many years has passed away, and you are sad because they are no longer there and then you get sad because the kids were a waste of cum, why didn't you just swallow, it would at least have saved you money. Once you are over the regret you can get back to being lonely again. <br><br>

So all in all lonely or being alone is not a fear that matters to me personally, I think maybe others have that and good for them they found one that is a bit emo but works. 

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<h2>Cardboard Castles</h2>

Then I thought ok, so apart from being alone, and being burned alive with a car tire around my neck what could I fear?<br><br>

I could fear losing everything and to become homeless. I think I could kinda get through that, I don't have much and apart from my pc there is nothing else of worth that I own. Becoming homeless in my current state and as me is not really an issue, it would be scary but I could make a go of it and find work I believe within the first month. <br><br>

Given I am in my current state. I could then fear to become addicted to things to deal with my "loss" ...  What did I lose? What can I achieve from there, I like underdog movies and if I were to become an addict this is not that period of my life. That was almost 10 years ago. <br><br>

So just purely because I am not who I was and will not be who I am I do not see that as a real concern. Now it is a possibility but I am perfectly capable of looking down at those people in derision that it will keep me on the right track. <br><br>

Those people? Yes those people, birds of a feather. Anyone I think is scummy and all the nice things that go with it. I should not judge? Fuck you, you go live on the street, it is called self-preservation nigga. <br><br>

Ok, so as a legit fear, being homeless and left with nothing and no one does not cut it. It would be scary as hell or as scary as some retard with bad breath and a knife having stumbled on your spot in the middle of the night. If they stab me and I die quick then it is still not a fear. 

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<h2>Rotten Flesh</h2>

I guess it is trickier than I thought, yeah sure violence is fear. The only things I can think of then would be becoming an invalid... Typing that makes the word quite apt. Although that again would just be something you need to deal with, an underdog story so not fear just unfortunate, you better have a bit of humour and at the very least an average personality.<br><br>

Losing my mind. Yes that I think might be a fear, fair enough your body betraying you but your mind? I don't think I could take that, but would I know? <br><br>

I think I will keep pondering fear because, on one hand until I face it I can't know whether I fear it or not. I do however know the one thing other than a violent death that I fear, and that is the person they will be the reason you face being helpless. They will have you listen to others screams, watch their limp bodies fall to the ground, hear the unanswered pleas. I guess that is a fear. 

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So yes, people are a fear. More precisely the kind of person which society is breeding and has nurtured through the years. I fear that I won't live to see the day it all collapses, none of us will. The people alive now are some of the vilest and pathetic things yet to have walked this earth and the worst is yet to come.