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I started smoking at 18, although it was something sporadic soon became common, was not a necessity at first, was more a social smoker especially in the university where going out between classes to smoke a cigarette was common, whem I was 22 years old and I started to live alone, this is where the vice became established in my life, I did not smoke at home before, now it was normal for me to smoke in my room with my respective glass ashtray and luxurious lighter,

It's incredible how little by little the vice becomes part of your routine, a cigarette when you wake up, one after each meal and one when you sleep, these were obligatory but obviously they were not the only ones during the day, money was not a problem and Worrying about health was not a very recurring thought, in fact it was a time of excess (sex, drougs and rock and roll).

A decade has passed and despite having kept the smoker routine almost intact I have not had any breathing problems or anything that indicates the damage that smoking for 10 years should have done to my body, I think it is due to my lifestyle, 90% of my diet are vegetables, I exercise regularly and I do not abuse other substances, my family today does not explain why I keep smoking since my ecological ideology does not stick with the vice of the cigarette. I will not be a hypocrite. I know very well the cancer that has been the tobacco industry for the world, but that takes a back seat when my cigarettes are running out and I have the urge to go out and buy more, I am addicted to nicotine...

What nobody knows is that I have tried to leave it several times, but the anxiety has won me all, it is something that makes me feel bad and I wonder if I do not have will power? I stand for a day maybe two and I cheat myself, believing my excuses and falling back into vice.

I see people who have quit without many complications and I wonder why I can not quit? Deep down I know I can, it's an internal struggle and havent had the motivation to do so; I just hope to find the strength before it's too late.
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> "Every form of addiction is bad, it does not matter if the narcotic is alcohol, morphine or idealism" Carl Jung.
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Thank you for reading...
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@rikrd3
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