Hello Midnight Thoughts Community,


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Although today was a good day, suddenly I remembered that person who was once the closest to me. The one without talking to whom, I couldn’t sleep well at night. And now, it’s been 42 days since that person left. 😅

Now, I can’t sleep properly at night anymore. In the middle of the night, thoughts of them come rushing back. Sometimes, if I manage to fall asleep on time, my sleep breaks in the middle of the night. It feels as if they’ve come back to me. Even now, it seems like they were always mine, as if their marriage never happened, as if all of this was just a dream. But this dream was real.

Life is so harsh. They once loved me, but now they’ve found someone else and forgotten me. I don’t know if they’ve truly forgotten me, but they told me they would never forget me. I don’t want them to forget me either. Because thinking about them, dwelling on their memories, has turned my life upside down, and for them to forget me—that can’t happen. As long as I keep remembering them, I want them to remember me too. Because they left me, not the other way around. I’m still standing in the same place, keeping my promise. And I could have kept standing there if they had held my hand and stayed with me.

Now, we don’t talk anymore. Both of us are living our lives in different places, in different ways. They are happy with their spouse, and I’m left with the memories of those old days.

Now, in the middle of the night, these thoughts surround me. They’re eating me up from the inside. And this is the pain of lost love. This pain has stolen my nights’ sleep.

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That's all for today. I hope this night will give sleep for me. See you in next Midnight Thoughts. 💭


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