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##### Here's another example of exactly how I feel inside about this, or when asked what I want on my pizza.
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##### ...Am I alone? Am I the only one? Help.
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As an avid Steem user for 2+ years, I've always lacked a sense of urgency to invest in Steem. I can earn it!! _Broken record._ I chose to earn my first 5,000 SP, bid-bot free, and I've checked that box.  User voting behavior and infighting within the community also heavily deterred me from buying Steem before to continue to only manually earn it.

With our hard fork out of the way, and the Steem/BTC ratio continuing to fizzle, it's becoming rather enticing to make a big move.

While I don't care about catching the perfect price (assuming curation/human activity continues to improve), my main roadblock is:

# Deflationary scarcity.
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Yes, one simple term keeps me from wanting to swap a potentially super scarce asset for an inflationary token that will continue to be watered down for years.

> Reading my own words there makes me cringe. Why would I do that? It feels crazy to me.

### But, then my emotions try to convince me otherwise... I could...
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- Inspire and reward others.
- Thank loyal and proactive supporters.
- Fight global financial inequality with my stake.
- Incentivize people to exercise and recycle.
- Finally be seen as at least an equal by top stakeholders.
- Influence development.
- Skyrocket in paper wealth and passive income potential if Steem goes anywhere near a few bucks.

> Alternatively, reading my own words above makes me think I'm crazy for _NOT_ investing.

<sup>_P.S. This is if and only if Steem sticks around and succeeds in the long run with good actors outweighing the bad._</sup>

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### It all feels like a huge risk versus a safe bet, but there are so many pros involved. 
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Yes, more risk = more reward, but does it when talking BTC? Forget ETH, all BTC here. The world is talking about Bitcoin. Friends and family, corporations, governments, countries, etc.. Those are all super promising signs that it's a keeper and to not F with giving it away for a while.

Also, real money doesn't seem to be flowing into the Steem ecosystem, and hasn't been for a prolonged period of time. Trust me, I've tracked this closely, and some volume probably isn't even real/from Steemit's regularly schedule selloffs (despite drastically reduced costs).

Would I be giving up a relatively safe bet for financial freedom for a far riskier/yet dynamic play? Yes. Could I live with this is BTC rises and Steem continues on its price/adoption descent for an extended period of time -- or fails to recover? Probably not.

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### I'm trying to look forward here, which is also why it feels difficult to part ways with tokens I've held safely offline for years.
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As I continue to observe how things change after the hard fork, I'll try to overcome my fears to let go of my scarce assets for an inflationary one that's been working through lots of obstacles. It's a very hard position to be in.

I wanted to do a dive into the deep end, not some 10% diversification, but maybe that's what I need to do to get a decent slice of Steem to be dangerous during a rebound.

I'm sincerely trying. Sometimes it feels like a coin flip. 

At times, I feel like I'd sleep better holding my ground and just peacefully accumulating Steem at a snail's pace over the next couple of years.

What to do... what to do? For now, I'll close my laptop to go mail 6 shipments and make some more money.

### ::Me bracing for Murphy's Law.::
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Any advice or opinions? Talk to me.

Thank you,
@steemmatt