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This post is a part of Dreemport Challenge 'Marathon'


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I fear.

Every day.

The shame never leaves me.

I shiver with dread.

I am short of breath.

My hands tremble and sweat.

My stomach growls loudly.

My mouth is dry, its corners cracked.


**I am afraid, but I do it anyway.**





  

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## **Marathon**

 
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In my last post I somewhat outlined to you my beginnings on the #hive and how #DreemPort took me under its wing. I would very much like to give back the warmth and care I was given there.

Therefore, for my part, I want to help new #hive members find their place. I am still a #newbie myself, so it is much easier to get into your skin and identify with your problems. That's why the @heyhaveyamet initiative is so important. This month we are working with new hive members in groups in the 'Marathon' challenge([read about it here](https://peakd.com/hive-125125/@dreemsteem/runners-take-your-mark-the) and [here](https://peakd.com/hive-125125/@dreemsteem/and-theyre-off-go-newbies-go))


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I am part of the @samsmith1971 Team
and I will be working side by side with:
 @veganuss.family, @ojbear and @madeirane. 

I offer you my help but I know I will definitely learn a lot from this experience.


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## **I am afraid but i am doing it anyway!**

Don't worry, I won't bore you with stories from my life today. I will spare you my excitement this time too.

And I want to point out that the poem at the beginning is not gloomy at all. It isn't! What I want to share is the thought - even though you're scared - give it a try. Everyone has different goals and challenges in life, but it's important to push the boundaries. No matter how much it hurts - we need to push the boundaries, to learn new things, to try, to taste, to experience. 

Fear only means that your common sense is in the right place, but how many inventions would have been made if scientists or engineers were guided only by it? 

Better safe than sorry? Nah!

I say do it! Do it now!

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## **About the drawing**

This is an old drawing, from my art academy days, so yes - quite old. It was a time when I couldn't part with my favourite Promarkers. I wanted to own every colour on earth, but I only used a few anyway:) I am not saying that I have a narrow colour palette, but certainly no one would count me as a colourist:)

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The drawing was made at a time when nothing else but the body existed for me. Naked. Naked bodies everywhere. Soft bodies, bony bodies, chubby bodies, flabby bodies, sagging bodies. Each one held secrets. To this day, the nude is my favourite study, but I approach the subject with a very different way. 


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I think I miss drawing freely a little, I think the 'stiffness' of my compositions and figures comes from the fact that I have become a little stiff myself. I need to re-learn freedom and spontaneity and I will work on that:)</div>

As always, I count on your honesty in the comments!


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Yours, 
Strega Azure



#dreemerforlife 

Here you can find 'marathon' posts of our team #dreemscapers:


|[ samsmith1971](https://peakd.com/hive-109288/@samsmith1971/the-good-days-on-hive)|
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|[ojbear](https://peakd.com/hive-109667/@ojbear/my-hive-intro-post)|


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