I got a package in the mail a day or two ago from my brother in Australia, @galenkp. In it was a couple of ziplock bags with some old baby and family photos, a large envelope with some of my report cards, drawings and cards I had made for my mother, a smaller envelope with clippings from my first hair cut and, a sketchbook. 

It was quite a pack and I should probably thank him for it. Thanks bro. I have so little of my early life here in Finland, so it means something to have something to show my new family. It is funny seeing photos of myself as a baby and how similar my daughter looks. I plan on sharing some of the photos and my memories in time after I have had a chance to go through and scan them and collect my thoughts. 

Here though are some sketches out of the book (pictures taken with phone sorry). All are done with a clutch pencil (I am lazy to sharpen) in 1999 except for the last which was 2001 which looks like it is done with a fineliner. I haven't drawn much for many years but it is funny looking back at them as I *think* I remember drawing them. I can at least picture where I was likely sitting when they were drawn. The last, is a self-portrait. 

Lots of women? Yes. Women are beautiful. For me, the feminine energy signifies movement and change and as it flows it is both a creative force that becomes the new and destructive force that ends the old. It is life over time.

When I drew these, I was very ill and didn't leave the house much unless for either work or university. Drawing was a lot of my escape from the pain and while I sat there sketching, I was free, the tip of the pencil the way out. You will notice that none of them are really finished and think that has always been the way with me, nothing is done, there is no end until the end comes. 

Anyway, no one has ever seen these before except @galenkp who found the sketchbook in his shed where some of the family's belongs are stored. Well, now they are on the blockchain. It is funny, I have very little issue talking about all manner of things through my writing but, this feels personal. 

Taraz
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