A question for the writers out there: How do you feel when you write?

Of course, it obviously depends on what you are writing about but I am asking how your emotions affect your words or how your words affect your emotions. Sometimes I wonder if it is a chicken or the egg scenario where I am unsure which way the streams flow.

Often when I write, the starting idea morphs into something quite different by completion and as my thoughts spill on to the page, they in turn find and raise emotions, which then catalyse new thoughts. 

Other times, I feel like the emotion forms the starting point and as they fall out, the mind has a chance to process and shape them. Again, often where I start, I do not end.

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In some way, I have always visualised my thoughts like music played on a piano. At first, it is a disjointed mess of random keys being slapped by untalented fingers but as they progress, notes start to connect and combine and find a rhythm and flow. Sometimes they progress smoothly into a tune and other times they are barely recognisable as music at all, just noise.

What I have found as I write though is that it is a valuable process to get the words or emotions out whatever the case may be. I do not post everything I work on however as often, it is really just noise that clears the mind, or perhaps the heart. It is cathartic. 

Writing has become a resource for me, a relationship with a close friend who is always willing to listen, even when times are difficult and I am unable to make sense of what is going on, let alone put it into sentences. Quite regularly, this friend has answers for me too, even though I do not always want to listen to what he has to say.

When people meditate, they look to become more aware of themselves and in so doing, more aware to the world in which they operate. As they practice, thoughts and emotions come and go through their consciousness giving them a chance to acknowledge, understand and release when the lessons have been learned. What many seem to find is that they had the answers to their questions all along, they were just too noisy to hear them or weren't ready to listen.

Since beginning this process, I have learned a lot about myself and I *think* I may be a better person for it. What is better I do not know but I have definitely changed my views and actions in many ways and seem to be more accepting of myself. Do other people get this?

I also wonder how relatable my words are with readers, do they resonate with you too, do you feel them, do you you see yourself in them or do you understand others better through them? Perhaps they make you laugh or cry, maybe even angry. 

What my hope is that even though personal, there is some kind of negotiation between you and me through the words, that a conversation takes place of sorts. Possibly even, you are connected to the good friend in yourself as I think, they are often smarter than we give them credit and we should listen to what they have to say.

So, when you write how does it affect you or, how do you affect it? I am interested to hear.

Taraz
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