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It is Mother's Day tomorrow and I haven't planned anything, other than a breakfast that Smallsteps and I will make before *The Mummy* wakes up. It really isn't going to be anything special, but to be honest, it is a ridiculous "event" in my opinion, but one that seems has to be paid attention to, otherwise I will evoke the wrath of the Instagram gods or something. 

>I can't wait until Smallsteps is old enough to handle this by herself.

At the supermarket, it looked like I wasn't the only one leaving breakfast prep until the last minute, with the store full of fathers doing their best to find random stuff that seems special enough for the occasion - there isn't much. I also ran into the father of my daughter's best friend at daycare *and his daughter* - it was 10pm already and she looked very tired. 

>You can probably catch the vibe - I am over it.

*But, gotta do what you gotta do.*

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>These holidays are silly. 

I am looking forward to summer though and if possible, I am going to try and take more time off than normal, since I have most of last year's summer holiday allowance also. All up with overtime saved, I have almost 60 days of time off owing and while I don't want to take them all, an extra few days here and there might be welcome. Smallsteps is starting preschool in the autumn too, so I will take a couple days to spend with her before also, as I think she will enjoy some extra attention and I suspect the closer it gets, the more nervous she will become and want to talk about it. 

>Do you remember your first day of school?

*I do.*

I remember my first day of kindergarten, school and high school.

The first two sucked massively and I disliked going a lot. But my first day of high school I entered into the grounds and a pretty girl named Maria called me over and we started talking - I liked school a lot more from then on. 

>I was not a good student.

Funny though, isn't it? How such little things can change the entire experience going forward and perhaps, completely shift our future paths. I wonder what would have happened if those early experiences had been good or, Maria hadn't spoken to me that day - would I have been a better student - worse? Would I be where I am now or somewhere completely different?

>Sliding doors, right?

If I did nothing tomorrow for Mother's Day, what would happen? Would nothing change or would it be a catalyst for pivot in our relationship, setting up a chain of events that would fundamentally affect us? 

>Should I risk it and sleep-in instead?

*This is the thing...*

There is *no way* to actually know what tomorrow will hold and while it is possible to predict based on past performance, future outcomes can be wildly different from expected and can be affected by an endless array of alternatives that were never factored into the initial data that were used for the prediction. There is so much out of our control and awareness, that it is a fool's errand to try and call the future and, a fool who thinks that they know all that led to where they are today. 

>Our memories are selective.

I wonder how much of our lives we accurately recall and how much we can't recall at all. It would be an interesting metric to have visibility on, because we think that since we lived through our lives, we know what has led us to be the way we are, or understand who we are, when in all likelihood, we are not much more knowledgeable than a stranger when it comes to most things - especially our early years.

All of these events seem so important at the time of having them but a year from now, my wife will not know what she ate for breakfast tomorrow, or remember what gift she got - but she will remember if she got no gift at all - which is what she is going to receive.

>It will be memorable.

Score!

*Happy Mother's Day.*

Taraz
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