Haha there you go girl ! Good to see you keep emotions at there places. All good traders went trough this at some point for some reasons.

Our company is based on how price manipulation works and you'r right about it ☺️

I think you understand risk management (pricing) now you need to add money management. And rule #1 is don't get rekt and keep money to trade another day. Ryan Jones is a good starting book for instance 😉