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It’s such a reach but I feel like I have to try, even if I get them all recorded it’s still gonna take me tomorrow morning to get them all topped and tailed (intro/outro) but they would be done and it would be the 16th of November, skillshare pay day, I won’t get a lot this month but it would be great to launch that course tomorrow too to see what kind of traction it gets on the skillshare platform for the month ahead and send a tone to me to get my shit together for the rest of the month.

So far I’m $128 + $50 + potentially £75 into the total that I really need to be making for this week, I’m getting part way but I’d not make it enough and I’d be screwed for the week if it was not for @dayleeo helping through the situation, this makes me feel pretty useless and it’s certainly a topic I want to get into at some point about the changing tide of work and mental health when you pushed into decisions that effect where and how you live because I know it’s a top we don’t really talk about — that as well as wants and needs, greed and so on — honestly at times I’d want nothing more to have that mobile van life and head for the highest hills in the Peak District!

Anyway, how ya doing? Life treating you well?

I just had my first coffee of the day and I’m considering breakfast after I’ve recorded these next four parts that I’ve already written the copy for, that would take me up to 20 episodes, that feels like a big step forward I’ll be honest, certainly will take the course over three hours — this has to be finished because it’s my current roadblock from getting started on the shorter courses, I’ve only got like five mapped out, I need to get maybe another 20 made, I’m pretty sure I can mock up the first bunch thou so I keep on track for the start of the month but it’s gonna be close — it’s gonna be a mad dash for november and december.

yet again thou this morning i’m still suffering and really hazy from - THE START - I’ve had my coffee, I’m in front of the computer, I’ve got the video software up, got my green screen down, lights, setup, just gotta calibrate and go but that step forward into recording is a weird one — I’m sure you have this too but when the camera is on, your are exposed, vulnerable, don’t get me wrong I’ve been doing this a long while but I always wanna do a good job not just for you but for me. I want it to flow and be super authentic but I have high standards for what I put out too.

For instance in this course for content creators I’ve tried to position myself in the headspace of the daily, weekly youtuber that has a normal life like most of us, wake up start, charge the batteries and kit, get the shots, take the time, travel, breakfast, logistics and then considered as to where steemit fits into that pipeline and process, middle of the day, end of the day — how this course can be jumped into anywhere with a section that might be the activator to then take a harder look at steemit.

enough information to charge up that thought process and look into a crypto social blockchain, often for the first time and what that entry point looks like — even thou we don’t consider them most of the time entry points are super important for legacy when it comes to activating people into these online networks. Maybe I’m just doing my usual self critical over evaluating as usual, maybe I should just go with it and cut the video up with some sharp jump cuts, I’ve already written down what I want to say (roughly and will skirt around) just gotta get that camera on and record.

Send me positive vibes people, struggling with balancing the forces of nature, positivity, forward motion, finance and the changing energy of the year — as a ground sign I really feel for the earth and everything going on in it and it has an almost knocking of my feet effect on some days, it can feel all so very overwhelming living in a predictive headspace a lot of the time.

OK, feel like I’ve decompressed, time for more coffee and get started, sometimes I just need that in the mornings ya know?