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The use to say love is beautiful, love is blind, I will love hurt and it is full of emotional pain or should I say relationships. I still use to wonder if getting into relationship is really important or compulsory. Falling in love with the right person is really amazing and might be full of memories but who is the right person to fall in love with, even the right person might later turn wrong and things might get sour or is the love in this generation a curse that people nowadays just keep joking with it. 

Love in the air, that was how I fell in love for the first time when I saw this girl, I cant say her beauty attract me or was it her words, am this kind of guy that always find it hard to talk to girls and always try my possible best to distance myself from then. I started noticing this weird behaviour right from primary 3, I think I was 10yrs then, I only play with guys and I always keep to myself (mainly an introvert) so I find it hard to share this weird behaviours even my mum didn't noticed till I entered 100level. It wasn't easy but things work out, not as gf/bf relationship but as friends. We were friends for years, we love each other and we share things, it is a perfect soul mate but I didn't have the balls to propose or ask her to be my girlfriend, I was afraid of many things, rejection and disappointment is one of them. 

Even though people do say it is really a good decision dating your best friend but at times not all bestie are worth dating, so just need to be in that bestie zone forever. I made that mistakes and got burnt at the end. It took me years of friendship to acknowledge I really love this girl even thou I try to keep my emotions anytime she made a push, there was a night I ran away when she wanted to kiss me, innocent me took to my heels but after some month, I decide to give relationship a try, I couldn't ask her out but send a proposal text which she reject, I though maybe she wanted it physical, so I went to see her, at least to ask her why, If I had know, I should have told her I was joking or practicing how to ask a lady out, but i didn't, I summon the courage and ask why, the reply was somehow and it broke me to some extent. I just accept it the way it was, maybe it is better to be a friend than to be in a relationship with your best friend. But what I do wonder, **Why do ladies see a good guys who is in love with them but always opting for the bad ones**. That Question  still baffles me till today.


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