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## *Am I happy?*
Life is strange. I never would have guessed I would end up where I am now. The road I have taken has been long and complicated. I think I am on the right track. There are so many challenges, setbacks and diversions that it is hard to be "optimistic". I have always been a pessimist and I always feel justified because I did not have an easy life, but so often I see people with worse fates that have true optimism and are truly **positive**. I find this humbling and inspiring. I try to keep growing, developing. I want to be better tommorow than I was today. 

## *computers, work, money*
#### These are the things that stress me out the most, at the moment.

### *computers*
My brother installed Debian on my laptop years ago and it seems that I now need to reinstall the OS. I never fully understood Linux,so this is really painful and time consuming. I cannot even get it to boot from USB. 

### *work*
The work I do is fairly stressful: high stakes, lot of time pressure, lots of emotions. I can deal with all that. What I cannot deal with is the backstabbing and mismanagement. I try to see it as a challenge, but it really makes me bitter and I hope to leave this career in the next 10 years, if the gods permit.

### *money*
People that say that money does not matter normally have enough or are lacking long term insight.There are so many bills to pay and I want to invest in my future: I want to get more camera stuff, a computer that works, a printer, things for my vegetable garden, etc.

## *peace*
I try to meditate and exercise, which helps. I am on the path to self reliance, but the distractions are many and it is easy to get of track.
I like steemit and it helps me to stay inspired and focused.

## **Thank you for being on steemit and *steem on!* ♨️**