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Judgement can be a real bitch. There's a dishonor among men that can come through in Judgement. Where we make an assumption.  This results in "missing the point" - getting caught up on a detail...which is jogging a memory from a time long ago when we formed an earlier judgement based on getting caught up within a point of making an assumption...based on getting hung up on a particular detail.

I noticed that when i get annoyed with somebody else - there's a point of me in there. There's a point of myself that I am hiding from. It's not pretty when I do in fact acknowledge my bullshit.  It's not to shit on ourselves about our shit.  It's to recognize - correct and continue on.

There's been this part of me at times where i've made a bigger detail about things than is needed. For instance in recognizing a point of weakness within my overall character...a point of inadaqucy, there's been this tendency to want to 'play it up' as like taking in the role of wanting to get some credit in acknowledging my bullshit.

What i realized is that there's no real reward and credit given for personal change. "It's not even about that at all." That was my attitude. It took me awhile to figure that out. That I don't need attention and or recognition.  It's not that i don't enjoy some recognition or attention from time to time...it's just that I do not require the spot light in order to function....in order to live my life to it's fullest.

With affording myself the regard and consideration for my relationships with "rewards and credit" in terms of my personal change.  

> I realize my best expressions are pro for giving

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for existing within a pattern of having a temper tantrum of sorts...as like a sort of wallowing in my own sadness when I realized I make a mistake.  I realize the sadness is real...but it's not all that i am. It's a single part of who I am.

> I realize and know I am able to walk a process of self-correction.

> I realize and know that strong inner strength stems from my core as I am sensitive to the movements within my body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress the sadness existent within myself...and for having formed a coping mechanism of suppression - where i would mostly distract and deny the point any focus or attention.  I realize part of being a complete human being in this reality is to:

> Own our shit. What I mean is, to take responsibility for our actions. Make fine tuning adjustments when and as we see fit. To commit ourselves to being the best versions of ourselves.

I realize that I've been walking a process of being honest with myself...to face all parts of myself. It's a journey.

An integral bit of me creating momentum on my journey- as self-actualization, is the tremendous appreciation and overall gratitude i have for the [The Desteni Group](http://desteni.org/).  It was some time ago that i had seredipitusly stumbled, bumbled, and fumbled my way into the focused vision of Desteni. The real kicker emerges...and the real triping - was in the questions and answers.

# Steem On Everyone - Grateful to Be Aboard The STEEM SPACE SHIP Ride - Alright, Alright!

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# keep the STEEM ON REAL, 

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