**December 16, 2022**

**1:59 PM**

**Hello lovely hivers and hello rant , complain and talk community. It's my first time to post on this community and I feel like I need to submit this post under this community because this is a rant post of mine.**


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Stress and anxiety is part of my daily life I swear. Since I became a mom and my parents became separated I started to be used on being anxious thinking about things that is out of my control and I know it's not right. I don't know if it's part of post partum depression or not but even my virtual friends knew about our life set up. 


I am happily married a with a four year old son. We don't have any problem when it comes to our own family but you know both side of our family has a problem. 

It's been two years since my parents became separated and I need to take in charge with the responsibility of my mother and part of it is taking good care of my niece because my sister is a single mom and need to work to provide for my son. I became a mother of two instantly and for a first time mom like me I am having a hard time I admit it. 

On my husband family we also have an issue. My mother in-laws has an Alzheimer's and she needs someone to take good care on their house. To make the story short after two years we decided to moved on my in-laws house to take good care of my mother in-laws. 

It's not easy to live with a person with Alzheimer's. All our things need to be safe because she always get it and bring it to her room. Our kitchen has no stuff except from the stove and our gas needs to be lock as she always turn on it and then forget about it. Our plate organizer has locked. I did a diy lock because if we didn't lock it all our plates will be in her room same as our condiments and other things. 

Mostly our things is in our room and our room has lock outside so that she can't able to enter it. Even our slippers needs to be hide because she keep on wearing it and afterwards it will be lost and the most challenging part is too handle her attitude because if you will going to asked her and sat anything to her she will get mad. 

Yesterday when I was sleeping she went outside the house and collapse. My sister in-law and me were talking on how to handle my mother inlaws situation because we are the one who help each other when in terms of my mother in laws condition. We don't want to lock her in her room because we pity her but what's the best solution? 

Maybe you will asked why hired someone to take good care of her or send her to a home for the aged facility. We can't afford to hire a caregiver and there's no home for the aged here. As for me , I am taking good care of her , I clean her room , prepare for her food and sometimes talk to her but not all the time because I have a son and I also do a few stuff online that's why I can't able to have an eye on her all the time. 

Early in the morning my husband was so stressed because he was about to take a bath and found out that our personal hygiene kit was lost. It was hanged on the comfort room but still my mother in-laws get it and bring to her room. 

I see the stress on my husband's eyes and I dont want him to be stress as I'm afraid that his eyes condition will come back. Earlier I asked him why he's in frown face and he told me that he didn't know where to go as the stress are everywhere. 

We just keep on praying for an added strength to face this kind of situation as it's really give us stress. 

That's all guys. Thank you for reading.