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Hey my name is Aya and I always wanted to be thin. There is no diet I do not know. An estimated fifty times I've started one. And sometimes only two days. An estimated fifty times I've postponed the slimming - to later. Sounds small. Is big. And typical. For me. It shows what I do with almost all the resolutions I have taken: I am shifting their implementation. Later has become my curse and my spell. Later, when I finally want to lead the life I want to lead, when I have blown the chains of everyday life and left all the duties behind me. Only: When is later? Now? Or later?

I would love to be kosequent, brave and free in my dreams, I dare to be so in reality but not. 
While I pour the flowers, answer mails, take my cat, go shopping and keep my mouth shut I notice that nothing will change. 

You can not move everything that is important to you year by year if you do not soon begin to lead the life you want to lead, you are dead. And you have missed your life.
I had to understand that first  and I think that I will have a beautiful life.