<center>![abearwon.jpg](https://steemitimages.com/DQmeyFFDfYgtTKDa6f17CS9adQb5fs5s14k33TDBVqMn8NM/abearwon.jpg)</center>   I only just this minute realize why I have such a hard time with reading and responding to comments that people have been kind enough to leave for me here on Steemit.  10 years ago, or more I was involved in blogging. I got into a flame war with some Scientologists and I was mobbed online and doxxed. I tried for awhile to just ignore the comments and stuff that they left for me... and I developed a position that it really was never worth it to read the comments that people left on my blog... or to google myself to find out what some horrible scientologists were saying about me. It's actually been 7 or 8 years since I googled myself.  I just don't want to know.

So now that I have figured this out... I think I will try harder now to retrain myself to start reading the comments. I'm older now... I've experienced a terrible health crisis. I just don't have the energy for long debates with people.  And that's another part of why I have a hard time with comments. People are leaving nice things when I peek at them... and they are so nice that I really want to give a great response... I want to be thoughtful and have the right words... and I keep meaning to do that... I keep intending to give a great response. But then I tell myself I will come back to it when I have more time and energy... and then I rarely do... MOSTLY BECAUSE I still have this reluctance to spend a huge amount of time in "the comments" section.

I hope people can understand this and relate to it.

I'm working on it. I promise. :)